Friendships

This has been a really isolating and hard part of my life. Especially the last few years. It's not that I haven't wanted friends. I have just been in a transition of growth that people had to be doing the same thing, or it wasn't going to work. Once I started dropping bad habits. My friends started feeling judged whether I was saying anything about it or not. Me just turning down the things I was stopping would cause them to feel a way. I'm thinking more for you, but they began to think I thought I was better than them.

No, I don't think I was better than them. I was now better than that bad habit. I didn't want to participate in things that was stopping my growth. People have to move when they are ready, and I was ready. I have learned you can't force people to change with you, but I also can't be in environments that are counterproductive what I am trying to do. I wasn't strong enough at first to turn it down after it is continually being offered. I knew that was part of our relationship and it didn't feel the same without it to me either.

I had to isolate to strengthen myself. I had to isolate to strengthen my relationship with God. I had to learn what I had let the world give and tell me, and who God intended for me to be. I had to heal and unfortunately no one was ready when I was. I had to walk my path anyway. I have got to a point where God is bringing friendships back into my life. Friends that I can be my genuine and authentic self around. Not feeling like the vibe killer because I want to have real conversations and not superficial conversations. Friendships that God can be in the center of. I am so excited.

God Provides (Jireh)

God provides everything we need. He created this earth for us to be able to have day and night. For us to have all the herbs to heal us. All the food we needed to eat from the earth. Everything we needed for shelter. Natural springs and wells for us to drink from.

We decided to build cities for profit. To charge for the resources God intended for us to have for free. We began seeking corporations and the government to provide for us that we stopped seeking God for the things we need. The way our great, great grandparents lived is so far from us, that we couldn't imagine living like that again. It would be hard to leave the convenience of what this world as we know it offers.

All God wants us to do is lean back on him. The way we seek people for help is a form of idolatry. We decided that instead of praying and seeking the creator of it all. We have turned to the greedy for crumbs to get by. God intended so much more for us but because the assistance is "free" we take it without question. It isn't free it keeps you stuck in a hamster wheel of settling.

This last year God has been working on me with just this. I gave up my job and although he made sure I had a steady income. It wasn't enough to get me through every month. I have had to lean on God to make it something the month and he has not failed me yet. The income to run my business, to have groceries, to buy herbs, to have gas for my car. I am in just in awe. Even when I was up to the day of needing something a way was made. Even for me to help others in this time.

Fall in alignment with God and you will never need for anything. God is our provider. Stop looking to the world for answers. God provides the food and water. The Sun and the moon to light the night. Herbs to heal anything we experience. All the things we need to build shelter. God provides a kingdom on earth as it is in heaven. Never forget God is our provider.

Prayer

I know I have said this before, but prayer is just a conversation with God. Just like we want the people we love to call just to say hey. So does God. I wake up daily thanking God for the breath in my body, and the activity of all my body parts. I ask him to cover my husband and children that they make it to their destination and home without incident.

Yesterday it hit me hard that as believers we have to begin to stand in the gap and pray for those who aren't in the mindset to pray for themselves. I prayed that my brother feels the holy spirit so he can begin to build a personal relationship with God. As I was in pre-bible study prayer. The pastor began to prayer for our unsaved relatives.

It pierced my heart. I have prayed for my family to be saved before, but it has been a while since I called out on their behalf. Begin to call out to God for your siblings, parents, and friends. That they get saved and then are able to be filled with the Holy Spirit.

If it nothing other than laying, there and just talking to God about your day. Tell him how grateful you are for walking you through the things that you didn't think you could. I just sat and thought the other day of how much I have grown since I started having a personal relationship with God. My mind, body, and soul is completely different. My heart and attitude is different. The way I carry myself and the things I do daily is different. I am so grateful of how he has worked on me that I am able to show up differently.