Moving in obedience

I know some people think when they hear obedience, they think of doing something that will change your life. Sometimes things are put on your heart to check on people God put in your life. As I headed home yesterday that is exactly what happened to me. I sent a message on Facebook. There was no response.

God directed me to go to the grocery store towards them and wait on a response. I got to the store before I got out the car I called and sent a text message. When I got out, I heard "do you need a cart?" He literally ran the cart over to me. I thanked him for going out of his way for me. It was just his way. He continued to do the same for everyone coming in. I went in the store and got what I needed. I left out and he said he was on the way home.

I told him that I would go to the car wash and kill some time. I got my car cleaned from the inside out. It felt good. As I headed back towards his house I had to go to the bathroom. I thought to go back to the grocery store. I got there and went to the bathroom. I took the long way back out the store and realized I hadn't got limes. I grabbed them and headed to the checkout. When I got to the front, I had passed a couple that was headed to the same checkout.

They got behind me I began to hear the woman whisper. I thought there were other checkouts open. I started moving faster because I was starting to get uncomfortable. She asked me what is your name. I turned around and said Natasha. As I looked at her, I immediately recognized who she was. It was a girl I went to elementary school with I called out her name and hugged her. We exchanged numbers. She text me that she was amazed that she seen me.

I went on to where I was supposed to go. I got there and he said God must of have told me he was free because he would normally be at work. I knew I had to go put my eyes on him. I came in and hugged and loved on his children. He shared what had been going on and said he was going to go to church. He needed to feel the spirit of the God. If it was for nothing else but to come in agreement with him in prayer. God, I ask that he feels your spirit and begin to build his relationship with you in the name of Jesus Amen.

Resting in God

I know that 2025 will be a lot of our year. From coming into union, restoration in our marriage, growing in our ministry, financial breakthrough (generational wealth), businesses opening and thriving, children being born. It all will happen in God's divine timing. He created the blueprint he knows when the perfect time for it to happen and when you are ready.

I know a lot of us have been waiting some for years. It was all preparation. If you are anything like me some things and people needed to be put down, and some things had to be healed. Had to get to a place of a sound mind, so you can hear from God. Then the process of hearing and being obedient could begin.

We have to be grateful not getting ahead of the day we are in. We have to stay grateful in today and making sure that we completed what we were meant to today before jumping into tomorrow. I found myself getting ahead of myself yesterday jumping way into the weekend. I had to stop and say God I thank you for me having all I need in today. I was grateful for getting my house clean and laundry done. Grateful for getting a call from my Pastor. Grateful to hear laughter in my home. Grateful that always makes a way.

A clean slate

When I use to hear people saying let's start with a clean slate, I use to think how? You never forget how people hurt you even if you forgive. The slate can never be completely clean. I thought about today that I couldn't see doing it with others because I couldn't even do it with myself. I couldn't forgive myself for the bad choices and the predicaments it put me in. I couldn't forget the things that had got me to the place where I felt like I had nothing to show for life.

This year changed all of that. Well actually it was the choices I made last year to heal and have more grace for myself. I started this year knowing I wasn't the same person anymore. I was in complete awe of what God has done in my life. I knew I couldn't carry the self-doubt and shame anymore. I had to give the new me a chance that I could and would make better decisions. That I was capable of more than my past told me I was. That this new version learned the lessons and could walk into a future opposite of the pain of my past.

I was able to start 2025 with a clean slate. Not caring any negative thoughts about myself that I use to let dominate my mind. Giving myself and those around me grace when it doesn't go as I thought it would. I know we are all on God's divine timing. I have slept in not thinking about the depression I watched my mother in. I have moved forward into my marriage not thinking about how my father left. I am creating my own story and life in partnership with God. It feels amazing being able to trust God. Which has allowed me to trust myself. Who would have thought I would ever get here, but here I am.