Speak to my heart Lord

Speak to my heart Lord is a declaration. Sometimes God can't speak to your mind because you are focused somewhere else. You can't hear him in emotions being too high. When God speaks to our hearts it speaks to the desires, he put inside it and reminds us it happens in partnership with him. I made a video outside today and if you know me that had me so excited. It has been so cold, but I made it out today. As I sung this in my video the wind picked up.

Get quiet in the moments where it feels all hell is breaking out and listen for God. Even if you have to get out what is going wrong. Don't do it with what has you stirred up, sit with God and allow him to give you peace and work through it. God got you.

I came out of talking to God about the attack that the enemy just knew was going to take me out. I surprised myself because he knows to go for the jugular. I refused to be used as part of his warfare. I went to sleep. The next day I was speaking so much life over everything the enemy tried to have me in bondage about. The warfare of everything that has hit me before has made me stronger. I won't be tricked in mishandling my blessing you ole dusty devil

Spiritual Gradation

Yesterday I brought my first message at church. I was nervous all week and God was waking me all hours to keep revising. Some days reluctant but I got up and did it. I practiced it one more time Saturday night to make sure I wasn't tripping over my words and had a flow about it. Yesterday I said Holy Spirit, I welcome you in.

I got to church and enjoyed Sunday school, and it began to run over time. I started feeling anxious because the people I had invited were going to be there and church hadn't started. They started coming in and went back to greet them. The way they embraced me I knew they were happy to be there to support me. It gave me peace to focus back on my message. Pastor called me and the other woman who were speaking and said 7 minutes. That was cutting my message by more than half. I had timed myself trying to see how long it was.

I didn't scratch anything out I knew what the meat was and what was fillers. I figured I would just skip over. God poured and I might need something for later. It was my turn, and I turned my timer on by the time it was going off I was finishing up what I was singing. It was over I had done it. Still questioning myself if I had used the right part. Cause God had woken me up at 4am with a message. By the time church was ending I knew I had said what I needed to say.

All of it was powerful but I wanted to reach who God intended for me to. The mother of my husband's children came to support me. The pastor spoke to her about my message being in line with what she was going through. She is in a rough time, but God will see her though she has to trust him. That was all the confirmation I needed.

Not only did I welcome the Holy Spirit in me, but the Holy Spirit met me there. The whole service was absolutely beautiful. The woman that showed up to support me. My daughter's mother, my sister-in-law, and my friend are a part of the tribe God has put in my life. To support me, pour into me, and hold me accountable. As I am to them. I had my spiritual graduation yesterday and I will never forget it.

You are at your breakthrough

Warfare hit my home last night. The old me would have turned my home upside down. The enemy doesn't yet understand God has given me new tools and made me knew. I know this fight isn't carnal. I verified what was taking place but I didn't respond. I took it straight to God.

I cried and spoke to God honestly about how I was feeling. I talked to him about being obedient and not seeing any change outside of me. I turned on a video to get my mind off what was going on. She said ask God what is your next step. I did just that. God show me the next step. I cried a little more. She said you will go from rejected to respected. I said out loud God got me. Then God started talking to me about emotions just being high from situations out of our control. That things were being said that were out of emotion of hurt.

I fell asleep. God started pouring into me a little after 2 am. I was honestly laying there thinking I come on now. I just had a rough night give me a break. I got up and began writing what God was giving me. He said the enemy is trying to make you give up and turn back to everything I brought you through. Keep pushing you are at the threshold of your breakthrough. You didn't hear me wrong. The devil is using the people closest to you. Just hold on. Just hold on.