Listening for new direction

So, I woke up early from hearing direction. I had so much inspiration yesterday about what to talk to God about. Oh, yes I talked to him about it all of it as I fell asleep last night. I just listened this morning and began to write what I seen and heard. I felt so full and nervous if I'm honest.

I began to read my bible after I got everything wrote down. Went a little deeper than I planned. I just laid there and thought about it all. One of the things God showed me had to start today. It wasn't going to take a lot of me but I told God I was nervous about the shift that was taking place. I had been waiting on this but was I really ready.

God had been having me rest for what was to come. I'm like am I ready to come out of rest. To do everything God has for me? I am with God I can do anything he has planned for me. I just have to continue seeking God, being obedient, and following through the day I hear things. I spoke life over everything that is coming, and silenced the doubt. I can do this. God said I can.

I know he isn't going to give me more than I can bear. He has been preparing me and I feel myself changing daily. I know should've been mediating regularly. Maybe that is for one of you as well. I finished my workout and before I got up I jus went straight in to mediation so it didn't get missed today. It felt so good to clear out the negativity and breath in all the good that is coming. To sit in quiet and gratefulness to God.

Snow Days

I don't think I have seen snow like this is years. It just reminds us that some things we don't have control of. I woke up to snow covering the roofs, the roads, and the cars. It looked so beautiful. Like a snow globe. I have just been not rushing anything. Taking the day as it comes. I even got out of my routine today, but everything is still getting done.

I just finished my workout and as amazed out how fluid it was. I haven't done pushups in so long. I as so proud. I was on editing and posting a little earlier this morning. I am seeing the difference in my videos. My passion is coming back. I am looking forward to getting at my fruit. It is definitely going to a blanket day.

My husband hasn't got out of bed yet. When I was getting my videos done. I seen a post that said it is National cuddle day. Who knows but that is exactly what I will use today for. Lay in bed with my husband and cuddle. Take a nap if that's what happens. Watch movies and resting. Maybe go throw some snowballs. Just enjoy my snow day.

You did it

I have been talking about breaking generational curses for a while now. On New Year's Eve I woke up with the revelation that everything I have been through, was a generational curse that stopped my family in their tracks. I looked at generational curses I looked it as what did I need to do to pour love and not bring trauma to the ones who come from me.

I mean everything from being born sick, incestual molestation, incestual predators, incestual hate, toxic parent and children dynamics, not being raised with their parents, foster care, addiction, loveless relationships family friends or spouse, feeling loveless, being neglected, being abandoned, feeling insufficient, feeling insecure, lacking confidence, poverty, lack mindset, wanting to fit in, people pleasing, losing their children.

These are all things that broke up my family with truly believing God. They were broken by one a couple of all of these things I lived all of these things but whenever I was going through, I knew only God could help me. Man had caused the pain. I was the cause of some of my own pain. I knew I needed God to get out of it and get to a better way of thinking, living, and being.

I partnered with God and stay in partnership with God through everything. I will love nothing more than God. God helped me get through all the things that had broken something in my bloodline before me. I walked into this year in joy despite all the enemy had tried. He got lazy the same thing had worked for generations he thought he would get me the same way. God was ahead of him in the creation of me.

God was ahead of him in the creation of you. Don't fall back into old patterns. Don't shrink to make people feel more important. Don't fall back into the shell of your former self. You were meant to stand out that's why you never fit in.