The stripping by God

These last few months I have been being stripped of who I was to become who I am supposed to be in this coming year. Not only has been mentally and emotionally draining, but I have been physically exhausted. Spiritually I have never been stronger. Just thinking about it is bringing me to tears. After the last couple of years, I thought God I gave all I had to give.

What I had actually given up was bad habits and survival I had learned to cope. These last few months were about becoming. Becoming everything, God needs me to be to get what he has been showing me for years. Who he needs me to be to reach the ones he sent me here to get. I knew I was supposed to end the year in a fast. I couldn't wrap my head around it. Yesterday at church God brought me to my knees to reverence who he has been to me.

There is something I was created for that I am walking into. It has been a stretching because I can't see how. I believe and trust God that I had to keep moving forward. I don't want the life I can create on my own. I know the one God has for me is so much greater I feel it with every part of my being. God your will not mine.

The warfare has been so heavy. I know what I am walking into is only going to make it worse. What I do know is that the enemy doesn't come after just anybody. He is coming so strong because God has his hand on my life. God's plan is greater than anything I can imagine that it will bring people to back to him. God strip me of everything not of you. Let people see you when they see me. Thank you for using me.

Be careful with how you treat people

As the year comes to an end people are going through a lot. Whether it be feeling alone, not feeling adequate in fulfilling what they should be doing during the holiday or having thoughts of not wanting to live. I hope you lead with love in how you treat and speak with people. You have no idea what is going through that head of theirs.

Yesterday it was on my heart to go live and sit with those who felt alone on Christmas. It could be for a number of reasons maybe they just don't have anyone, maybe they have experienced loss, or going through depression. I got on and just talked from my heart. I wanted them to feel something other than sadness. So, I told them they are important. I smiled, laughed, and shared that I was spending the day in the house without any big plans.

I needed to get started on food, and I went to get off. God put on my heart to turn on some music and dance. I am a dance hall/ afrobeat type of girl. I went to turn it on and my batteries were dead in my remote. I just took them out and rubbed them in my palms and put them back in. Got some music turned on. I got up and encouraged them to get up and dance. My legs were on fire from my workout, but I gave it all I had. I was so glad I did it. I don't know if it changed anything in their day but it filled my spirit.

I just ask that you move with grace and love.

Make me over again

It is strange how you can hear or watch something and over the years it receives new meaning. I have heard Lord make me over, make me over again from a gospel song when I was a little girl. I took it as saints crying out to God because they had sinned and wanted to get back in his good grace. as it played in my head today, I registered it differently. Make me over referring to the next version to get closer to who he meant for me to be.

It doesn't happen all at once. After the pain of the world has got its hands on you. We make it back to God is phases. First admitting to ourselves we aren't living right. Admitting it to God. Getting to the place we can ask for forgiveness. Getting humble enough to ask God for help. Making it to the point we can lay down the things we know aren't right. Start building our relationship with God. Listening to correct the things we felt justified in doing. Build our relationship with God. Receive the Holy spirit. Build your relationship with God. You begin to meet a new version. You start carrying and conduct yourself in a new way.

You get to a point when even though you are living a human experience, you don't want to disappoint God. You begin to call out to God to make you over again. You understand you can do better than the new version. You can't settle with being better, when you know you still aren't showing up like God intended for you to. God make me over again. You begin to catch yourself. I never want to go back to who I was. The old me was created for survival. I shed that version to live and thrive. I can't let anything or anyone to live beneath who I have worked hard to become.

I learned the lessons of the world. I know better to be walked over, but I will not let anger, rage, and resentment live rent free inside my body, mind, and heart anymore. Holding on to those things only stops me from grabbing on to the things that are meant for me. I free myself of those chains. So, I can dance, sing, and frolic in the joy of who I become daily. God i thank you.