Today is dedicated to God

I have been in deep reflection these last couple of weeks. Looking back on where I come from and all I have been through. All the heartaches I experienced at the hands of others and decisions I made. I was able to look back a those times and see how I allowed people to treat me in ways I didn't deserve. I wanted approval, to fit in, and to be accepted.

I thought because I wasn't taught how to love properly, that I would never know it. I thought I would never know how, and I was trying to show people I could that didn't know how or want to give it back. They wanted the company, my good spirit, or even just a body. I willing made myself available to show I wouldn't leave them how I had been left.

I had lost so much that I didn't want to lose anyone else that I was taking whatever they gave. One day God shook me, and I seen I had to heal. As I started diving in, I began to see things differently. I stared feeling the sting of people not treating me right. That most of the people I was surrounded by I was trauma bonding with. They weren't ready to leave the past behind. Thy weren't ready to put down the pain. It was heir comfort blanket.

Even though I still have work to do. I have found peace and joy I never knew I could have. I am mentally, spiritually, and physically stronger. I have a relationship with God that I hear his voice. I am in complete awe of God. How could he care about me so much that he pick me up, dust me off, clean me up from the inside out, give me the holy spirit, and promise me a life of abundance? He poured into me it was always his plan. That everything I experienced was preparation that I never lose what he will give me.

God will get all the glory for everything. He breathes breath into me daily. He gives me full use of my extremities and organs. He gives me a sound mind and pure heart. He gives me love, peace, and joy I never knew without him. God, I love you.

Don't get distracted

With social media and the election there is so much to get caught up in. Every day there is a new crazy story on social media or more info on a previous story that had you captivated. The election results were just released, and I know I know it has the country in a choke hold for what will happen next. Let me tell you, you are focused on the wrong thing.

We have less than two months before this year ends according to the calendar we follow. We are in a time of judgement, and I am praying you are doing everything you can to get things in order. You should be focusing on doing things to please God. Nobody else's business has anything to do with you. Focus on your house being where it needs to be for God to be pleased with you.

God has been pouring out and I pray you are in a place to be able to recognize his voice and hear what he is talking to you about. it is so important to strengthen your relationship with God. The devil knows what is going on right now and he is giving it all he has to keep you distracted and on the wrong side. God cared enough about us to send his son down to walk amongst us, see what we faced, how we are tempted, and die for our sins.

You have the nerve to be worried about o is sleeping with who, how many kids they got, and someone else's dirt. Are all your closes cleaned out? Is your house a place of peace, joy, and love? Is it a place the Holy Spirit is welcome in? You should be more worried about that than who is coming and what you are having for the upcoming holidays. God is done playing with us, and I hope you are ready.

The difference in my interaction with nature

I have always been an outdoor girl. From being a tomboy as a child, to summer being my favorite season, to me finding peace in walking, and just being in nature and soaking it all in. I even rather shoot my YouTube videos outside if I can help it. Nature has always brough me a sense of peace.

Lately as I heal, I am able to take it in more than before. I feel more a part of it. I can't help but touch the trees as I pass them, I breath deeper now, and I feel the earth purifying my body as I ground (put my bare feet on the grass). The animals and bugs are even reacting to me differently. I have always seen myself as a snow white when it comes to animals. Pets have always been drawn to me, but now animals outdoors are getting pulled in as well.

I was outside yesterday, and a squirrel just sat there. Lady bugs were on me every time I came back in the house, they sat on me or near me as I enjoyed my outdoor time. Butterflies have been making a grand appearance to me. Something inside of me has shifted in my healing. I am no longer a threat to their safety. They are disarmed as I have disarmed. I even had a bee come hang out on me not to long ago and we were in total peace.

I am walking into who God created me to be and it is making me more harmonies in nature. It makes my heart smile to be able to be among all the rest of God's creations and no sense of fear. I feel like that is always how God intended it to be.