Can't get there without God

Change is coming quickly, and we have to change with it. Change with a new mindset and new heart posture. A lot of us felt like we were in the world alone and we had to do it on our own. People have continued to let you down and hurt you. God has always been there carrying you through it all.

You have to come before God in gratitude for keeping you and ask what you are here to do. I remember on my 23rd birthday I woke up in tears. Thanking God for saving me from my bad decisions and keeping me alive. I never was suicidal, but I didn't care what happened to me. I was prepared to die any day. I woke up that day wanting to live. I was ready to see what God created me for. I wanted to experience love, peace, and joy on earth.

I knew I didn't know how to experience this on my own. I asked God to help me get to the desires he put in my heart. It has been 11 years since that day. Have I gone through struggles and heartache since then? I sure have, but mostly because of me trying to satisfy my flesh. I thought I could create the situation to bring love, peace, and joy in life. My pride brought on my struggles and heartache.

Once I surrendered it to God my life keeps getting better. I am in awe daily of how much God loves me. Cares enough to correct, guide, instruct, pour into me. I never thought I could make it to a place mentally, and emotionally that I would truly believe it was going to be ok. I am in a place of knowing it will be better than I could ever imagine. That is what God wants for us, and you can't get there without God.

I am proud of you

It's been quite a journey. You have gone through so much. Lacked love, support, and guidance. You have navigated the world the best way you knew how. You went into survival mode to make it through the struggles and pain of life. One day you seen the life you were living is not what was meant for you.

You started trying to work on the things that you didn't like about your current situation. When you removed yourself from the things that were hurting you. You now realized the things about you that allowed those things into your life. You began working on yourself to be able to set boundaries. After you set boundaries, you realized you had to be what you were asking for.

You began doing everything you knew how to do to better yourself. You hit a wall you did everything you knew how to do, but you weren't where you needed to be. Although you have been in partnership with God. You now realize God I need you take the wheel. God, you have the blueprint for my life, and you know best. I will listen to whatever you tell me to do.

You start getting breakthroughs on things you didn't know how to do on your own. You began healing things for not just you but your future. You cried the tears, began to heal the wounds, and grabbed the hand of you as a child. You realize that it was always you. God gave you everything you needed. You stopped the trauma with you. You have changed your lineage, and I am so proud of you.

God has the blueprint

Will I dance in your presence or in awe of you be still? Will I stand in your glory or to my knees will I fall? Will I scream hallelujah, or will I be able to speak at all? I can only imagine. Is the song in my head this morning. All through the night I kept telling God I just want you. Over and over and then I would go into chants of Hallelujah.

I realized for years I have been saying there is no blueprint for who I will be, or the path God has me on. I realized today that there is, and God has it. He has the bigger plans with him, and daily he is trying to give us instruction on the best way to reach the final outcome. Have I always listened? No, absolutely not. I no longer want to do anything else but listen and be obedient.

God has the blueprint to the desires he put deep down in my heart. God has the blueprint to my purpose that keeps me up at night. God has the blueprint to a whole and healthy love and family. God has the blueprint to friendships that hold you accountable and help you build your vision. God has the blueprint to how to properly raise your children. God has the blueprint to peace and joy. I need to stay in constant communication, because I can only imagine.