God all I want is you

In the lowest points and greatest accomplishments in life you have been the only constant. People and things have come and gone, but I could always count on you to be wherever I was. The first one to let me know it will be ok or that you were proud of me. The only one to cover me against everything coming against me. The comfort I needed when I felt alone. The peace I needed when all hell was breaking loose in my life. The one to encourage me when everyone said they didn't think it was a good idea. You went with me around the world and always got me back home.

I just want you. I know no matter what you will always be there whether I am on the top of the world or at my lowest point. It has been tested and proven. You know it is hard for me to just be told things, I have to see it for myself. You had no problem showing me who you are. You never got mad and turned your back because I needed proof. You just stayed patient, nurturing, and full of love. You never held back your correction to get me on the right track either. You made sure I became exactly who you created me to be. Even when I fought you on it, and did what I thought was best. You were right there to help me clean up my mess. To heal the wounds of my mistakes. To help me learn the lesson so I didn't have to live it again.

I trust you full heartedly. I will no longer question what you say. You have been the epitome of what trust, love, and protection is. You loved me at my worst and deserve my best. I know I can do anything because of you. I know I can't be broken. I know I am worthy. I know what I deserve. I now have a standard of who I should be and what I should accept. I am so grateful that you cared enough not to leave me. You loved me back to life, and I will use the rest of it returning the favor. I LOVE YOU.

You are accountable for the children

I had two dreams yesterday and in both I was caring for a child that didn't belong to me. One I knew the other I didn't, but I knew I was responsible for them. The first I did not know anyone but the child. In the second I knew everyone but the child. I didn't know who the baby belonged to but as I packed up, I made sure she was ready to go with me.

As I was making my video on it. The Holy Spirit revealed to me that the children around us, we are also responsible for. I grew up in a small town, and there wasn't an adult who couldn't correct us. We had to respect all adults. We lost that as we became adults. Our children have lost that respect because we taught no standard as a whole for it. I don't play that, but I am surrounded by children who thinks it is ok to disrespect not only other adults but their own parents.

God was getting on me about not guiding the children around me spiritually though. I thought I was doing the right thing about praying for them, and if I'm honest I did get instruction to pray with them before. I get detoured by their attitude about it, but we have to set the standard of them building their own relationship with God. I will do better on my part. I pray to God for instruction on the best way to approach it because he knows us all inside and out.

What I do know is I have no choice but to get it right. I hope you feel the same conviction. We have to teach, lead, guide, and pour love into the ones that are coming behind us.

Dreaming

I have heard when you are dreaming that you are in the spiritual realm. Your body needs rest, but your spirit doesn't. I was going through so much mentally for years that I had stopped dreaming. People would talk to me about dreams, and I would tell them my sleep is black. I never realized for years I rarely went to sleep out of exhaustion. I was going to sleep high most nights and was blacking out literally.

These last couple years my dreams have been so vivid. This last month they have been so clear that I thought I was pregnant again. I had never dreamed like this before. I am now realizing God is just opening back up a gift I thought I had lost. I haven't really understood the meaning of most of them, but I have been writing them down.

I know that I am healing and getting better because things I had been blocked and disconnected from for years that I remember as a child are coming back. God wants us to have an imagination. That is why we start out with one. The word does everything it can to take it away or give it to you through games and movies. God gave us one uniquely created for us. I see stories visually, I see in colors and lights sometimes, I feel things before they ever show up.

My dreams are matching up with that now. In some of my dreams I feel I am intruding because it is so real and when people begin to talk to me. I think, how do you know me? I just go along because I am inquisitive and want to know what is going on. I thank God for my dreams returning. It allows me to know our relationship with him is just getting stronger.