40 Days

For the past 40 days I have been staying out the way and been minding my business. It has been for me to focus on the things that I needed to be doing to walk into my next. I had to get my mind, body, and heart right. In this time of no strolling on the socials, getting my eating on track, getting in my workout routine, and building my relationship with God.

The one thing that is very apparent is I need God in everything. I have been taught in this time I had to trust God to provide. I thought these last couple of years was to show me to be submissive to my husband. I had always been the bread winner in my home. So, when I was pulled off my job, I thought it was a lesson so I wouldn't be in a power struggle with my husband. What was really happening was God showing me I had to trust him for everything to walk into the things he was bringing into my life.

I won't pretend that this time has been easy. I have struggled with, why? I have cried and been frustrated. I didn't move in my own strength. I was obedient, I fasted, I prayed, I worshiped, I praised, I dwelled in God. God provided all my needs, provided peace, provided joy, provided comfort, provided correction, provided instruction, and provided love.

I see myself differently. I feel that I am not moving alone God is with me. I will never be without. I will have a heart for God's people. I will be humble in service, and always know it is the hand of God. My circumstances tried to tell me one thing about myself, but God spoke something else in the creation of my soul. I now hear what God speaks louder than anything else. I trust and believe you for everything. I will give you the glory for it all. Thank you for seeing me and breathing life back into me.