Can't get there without God

Change is coming quickly, and we have to change with it. Change with a new mindset and new heart posture. A lot of us felt like we were in the world alone and we had to do it on our own. People have continued to let you down and hurt you. God has always been there carrying you through it all.

You have to come before God in gratitude for keeping you and ask what you are here to do. I remember on my 23rd birthday I woke up in tears. Thanking God for saving me from my bad decisions and keeping me alive. I never was suicidal, but I didn't care what happened to me. I was prepared to die any day. I woke up that day wanting to live. I was ready to see what God created me for. I wanted to experience love, peace, and joy on earth.

I knew I didn't know how to experience this on my own. I asked God to help me get to the desires he put in my heart. It has been 11 years since that day. Have I gone through struggles and heartache since then? I sure have, but mostly because of me trying to satisfy my flesh. I thought I could create the situation to bring love, peace, and joy in life. My pride brought on my struggles and heartache.

Once I surrendered it to God my life keeps getting better. I am in awe daily of how much God loves me. Cares enough to correct, guide, instruct, pour into me. I never thought I could make it to a place mentally, and emotionally that I would truly believe it was going to be ok. I am in a place of knowing it will be better than I could ever imagine. That is what God wants for us, and you can't get there without God.