I don't have the answers, but God does

For the last year. I have been completely being dependent on God for what to do next. It has been a struggle on this side but spiritually I have become stronger than I ever knew I could be. He has also blessed me with a husband that has lightened the load, but that is even God breathing life and health into him every day that he can.

I remember at the end of last year I was working to become a trucker. I had it in my mind that I could get to what God showed me by giving it my all for a year. God reminded me that he was going to do it for his glory. I had it in my mind that I would give God the glory for allowing me to get the opportunity. I would have been recording probably daily because I would have been alone, and all people would have seen is the sacrifice I put in. The hours I worked and being separated from my husband. I would have been complaining about a decision I made and talking to God about why it was so hard.

My husband asked me why I wasn't doing it. I got frustrated because I thought he was just focused on the money. Even though the money was a factor, When I went to talk to him, he said he watched me work so hard, and be proud of myself, and knock one thing down after another. I had to tell him I don't have the answers. It made me feel insecure not to have an answer, but God has me working on something else. I need to be obedient.

I won't say there wasn't times even recently that I felt like I need to do something. I need to get a job and get some extra money flowing in. What I did was talk to God and get back in peace that he will do what he said he would do. I have been building my relationship with God, finishing and working the jobs God gave me to do, healing up, and getting physically strong. There is no job I can ever do that will provide what God has planned for me. I will continue to do what God has told me to do, and he will get all the glory for what has shifted in my life.