Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord was so heavy in my spirit yesterday. Every time it got quiet that is all that was in my head. I just began to sing, and hum lead me Lord. Over the last week I just felt stagnate and tired. I decided not to fight the exhaustion but just to give in to resting. I felt so guilty laying there that I wasn't really resting because my mind was just going about what I should have been doing instead. This morning, I just breathed and said what needs to get done will be. I got the rest I needed.

I didn't do a lot of things on my list last week as far as my blog and videos, but how I was feeling I knew I was not meant to share. I had to focus on me. I had to make a decision to look after me in the way my body was telling me I needed to. The experiences I have been in, in previous seasons I stopped trusting myself. This season God was working on me to trust myself again. Coming out of that week I trusted my decision and began to say lead me Lord, lead me Lord, lead me Lord.

Something broke off of me. I will go into this next year trusting me and trusting God like I never could before. My life is not meant to look exactly like anyone else life. My experience is one of one. I trust that know what I have to do, and even when I mess up it will not be like it was before. I am different and will have grace for myself that I will move forward better. God is making me unrecognizable to not only everyone else but to myself.

I have the best mentor, coach, advisor, leader, love, guidance, compassion, pure intention that I could ever ask for. I no longer will be concerned with what others think or their perception of me. If they can't see who I am I have to move around them and get surrounded with the ones who do see me. Also be okay if no one around me sees who I am because God sees me. Daily affirming me that I was uniquely and wonderfully made. Lead me Lord, lead me lord, lead me lord. Lord keep leading me.