Make me over again

It is strange how you can hear or watch something and over the years it receives new meaning. I have heard Lord make me over, make me over again from a gospel song when I was a little girl. I took it as saints crying out to God because they had sinned and wanted to get back in his good grace. as it played in my head today, I registered it differently. Make me over referring to the next version to get closer to who he meant for me to be.

It doesn't happen all at once. After the pain of the world has got its hands on you. We make it back to God is phases. First admitting to ourselves we aren't living right. Admitting it to God. Getting to the place we can ask for forgiveness. Getting humble enough to ask God for help. Making it to the point we can lay down the things we know aren't right. Start building our relationship with God. Listening to correct the things we felt justified in doing. Build our relationship with God. Receive the Holy spirit. Build your relationship with God. You begin to meet a new version. You start carrying and conduct yourself in a new way.

You get to a point when even though you are living a human experience, you don't want to disappoint God. You begin to call out to God to make you over again. You understand you can do better than the new version. You can't settle with being better, when you know you still aren't showing up like God intended for you to. God make me over again. You begin to catch yourself. I never want to go back to who I was. The old me was created for survival. I shed that version to live and thrive. I can't let anything or anyone to live beneath who I have worked hard to become.

I learned the lessons of the world. I know better to be walked over, but I will not let anger, rage, and resentment live rent free inside my body, mind, and heart anymore. Holding on to those things only stops me from grabbing on to the things that are meant for me. I free myself of those chains. So, I can dance, sing, and frolic in the joy of who I become daily. God i thank you.