Our God is an awesome God

It wasn't until I got out of God's way that things that he was showing me began to open up. I had to first set down my bad habits. I had to set down the things that I was carrying that God didn't call me to carry. I had to start working on myself to see what was stopping what God was trying to bring in. I started healing with God. When pain hit that I didn't see coming I had to refuse to curse God and lean into him. I had to begin to trust God in a new level. I had to go through a process of learning who God wanted me to be. I had to begin to listen for God and be obedient to the things I heard.

Was I consistent 100%? Absolutely not, but I never gave up on working towards it. God started walking me through my becoming. Showing up every day in the way he wanted me to show up. Becoming the person that people will be able to see me as a reflection of God. Child this was so hard for me, because I felt like I had already changed so much from who I was. God showed me I had put down things I had become and picked up from the world. That had nothing to do with him and what he needed me to work on.

Once I understood that I stopped resisting. Then I had to go through a breaking. Breaking me from my will so I would fall under the will of God completely. I'm talking about not doing anything outside the will of God. Being in a place of knowing whose I am and who I am with God. Staying grateful in everything because you know it is only because of God you are here.

I have for the last year been telling my husband everything would fall into place in God's divine timing. He wanted me to do it in my own strength and will. I knew I couldn't. Me surrendering my all and everything my hands were on to God is what I had to do. The things God has been pouring I know I will walk into the life God has for me this year. Hallelujah.