Spiritual Gradation

Yesterday I brought my first message at church. I was nervous all week and God was waking me all hours to keep revising. Some days reluctant but I got up and did it. I practiced it one more time Saturday night to make sure I wasn't tripping over my words and had a flow about it. Yesterday I said Holy Spirit, I welcome you in.

I got to church and enjoyed Sunday school, and it began to run over time. I started feeling anxious because the people I had invited were going to be there and church hadn't started. They started coming in and went back to greet them. The way they embraced me I knew they were happy to be there to support me. It gave me peace to focus back on my message. Pastor called me and the other woman who were speaking and said 7 minutes. That was cutting my message by more than half. I had timed myself trying to see how long it was.

I didn't scratch anything out I knew what the meat was and what was fillers. I figured I would just skip over. God poured and I might need something for later. It was my turn, and I turned my timer on by the time it was going off I was finishing up what I was singing. It was over I had done it. Still questioning myself if I had used the right part. Cause God had woken me up at 4am with a message. By the time church was ending I knew I had said what I needed to say.

All of it was powerful but I wanted to reach who God intended for me to. The mother of my husband's children came to support me. The pastor spoke to her about my message being in line with what she was going through. She is in a rough time, but God will see her though she has to trust him. That was all the confirmation I needed.

Not only did I welcome the Holy Spirit in me, but the Holy Spirit met me there. The whole service was absolutely beautiful. The woman that showed up to support me. My daughter's mother, my sister-in-law, and my friend are a part of the tribe God has put in my life. To support me, pour into me, and hold me accountable. As I am to them. I had my spiritual graduation yesterday and I will never forget it.