Today is dedicated to God

I have been in deep reflection these last couple of weeks. Looking back on where I come from and all I have been through. All the heartaches I experienced at the hands of others and decisions I made. I was able to look back a those times and see how I allowed people to treat me in ways I didn't deserve. I wanted approval, to fit in, and to be accepted.

I thought because I wasn't taught how to love properly, that I would never know it. I thought I would never know how, and I was trying to show people I could that didn't know how or want to give it back. They wanted the company, my good spirit, or even just a body. I willing made myself available to show I wouldn't leave them how I had been left.

I had lost so much that I didn't want to lose anyone else that I was taking whatever they gave. One day God shook me, and I seen I had to heal. As I started diving in, I began to see things differently. I stared feeling the sting of people not treating me right. That most of the people I was surrounded by I was trauma bonding with. They weren't ready to leave the past behind. Thy weren't ready to put down the pain. It was heir comfort blanket.

Even though I still have work to do. I have found peace and joy I never knew I could have. I am mentally, spiritually, and physically stronger. I have a relationship with God that I hear his voice. I am in complete awe of God. How could he care about me so much that he pick me up, dust me off, clean me up from the inside out, give me the holy spirit, and promise me a life of abundance? He poured into me it was always his plan. That everything I experienced was preparation that I never lose what he will give me.

God will get all the glory for everything. He breathes breath into me daily. He gives me full use of my extremities and organs. He gives me a sound mind and pure heart. He gives me love, peace, and joy I never knew without him. God, I love you.