Push through

We are in a season of transition that is going to take more than what we have given before. We are going to have to push spiritually. Push further in our worship. Push further is our praise. Push further in our time with God. We just need to push past what we thought was enough. od has been working on me with this since I brought the word a couple of weeks ago.

I was fasting coming into that Sunday. Warfare had been hitting, and it kept me up all night. I was tired and drained physically, but got gave it to me to ask to be filled up. I did just that. Since then, he has been showing me that I can go further than I thought I could. Not in my own strength but in partnership with him. Calling out when I'm feeling weak or unsure.

Today for example I decided to go on a walk. Little did I know God had me going on this walk. When I walked out it was sprinkling, and I said a little rain never hurt anybody. As I began to walk, I said Lord let it rain and wash me clean. It started raining harder. I started telling myself I would cut my walk short and turn back. I instantly felt conviction. The Holy Spirit revealed I was being prepared. Was I going to just give up. I pushed through my discomfort and began to talk to God about what he was bringing forward. Take everything that was not of him out of m and fill me up.

I started petitioning him for what I needed in the things he had shown me. That I would give him the glory I wasn't wanting it for the money or glamour, but for my children, and their children, and their children, and their children. I petitioned that he makes a way so that generations that come from me can do his work without a second thought. As I turned the corner the rain stopped, and I was reminded that after every rain the sky clears. The rain is so needed though for growth. I thank God for pushing me. I prayed like I had never prayed in intercession for my family. I told him make me into an intercessor like the old praying grandmothers. Send a revival and let it begin in me.

Yes Lord

Today was women's day in the workers meeting. It started with powerful prayer. The morning manna began with power "say yes Lord". I felt it with my whole heart. She said don't just say it with your mouth, but you should have a "Yes Lord deep down in your body". There was a sanger, you know the ones that don't have to get up or give much effort but the anointing on their voice that is sends chills throughout you. She began to sing, and a praise went up. I was playing my tambourine like it was a paid job. I didn't want to act up and I tried to contain it. God deserves a praise I began to shout.

I was shouting and praising to the point my throat began to hurt. I thought I had given all I had but is little girl came and grabbed me and began to shout. I couldn't let her praise him alone. I was also overcome with worship because she was so young. She was probably 12 and I just told her to praise him and praised him to be able to witness this baby dancing. I am definitely one that won't let the elders and mothers' praise and sit still. I am actually one that doesn't care what others are doing I'm going to give God praise.

Our women's supervisor gave a powerful message. You know someone gave a word when they pour into you, teach, correct, and guide you on next steps to get closer to God. She called the alter call. I know I needed to leave the old me on that alter. I began to cry out God take everything not of you out of me. Fill me up God. Fill me up to be everything you want me to be. God make me who you intend for me to be. You have my yes, Lord. Yes God, Ys God, Yes God. God showed me he was doing what I brought to the alter last worker's meeting. I called out for him to save my family. I laid out in surrender, and I got up and began to praise him.

One of the first ladies grabbed me and began to try to soothe me. She asked me what I wanted her to pray for. I told her Gd has gave me a vision that is so big, and I know he needs to be saved. She began to pray. God said two or more I have been praying but I will take the mother's prayers for my marriage and family. God is working it out for me. I thanked her and just felt so full. I thank God for the last 3 days of worship with fellow believers. I will give God the glory for it all.

God given dream

Our church is having a worker's meeting, and the speaker last night was speaking about a dream only God can give you. My spirit began to leap. I knew it was God that the worker's meeting started off this way. I know I am not leaving out of March the same. This week will be the week that God takes me into the season where I will be blessed to be a blessing to others. God is going to bless me to help others get what I used to be in need for.

Back to his message he was talking about God not being able to use certain people because they are too good. They are high and mighty, to anointed, and already in a position where they are not seeking God for more. God wants to use ordinary people so that people can look and say that is nothing but the hand of God. I could have run around the church. I will be used as evidence of who God is. He said you can't shar your dream with everyone they will try to destroy it or talk you out of it because of their unbelief. I believe but God help my unbelief.

That we have seen the vision and have attempted to make it happen in our own strength and failed. We will continue to fail if we continue to try to do it without God. It can only be done in God's strength, and he knew it when he showed us. He wants to see if we will die to ourselves to depend completely on him to get it done. He was all in my business with this message. I have been talking about this for some time, but I know it is now my time to walk into it. I am surrounded daily with confirmation on the things that God is pouring directly into me. I am walking into my God given dream and people who witness it will know it is nothing but the hand of God.