Fill me up God

I knew I needed to fast. I originally planned to do it with the start of the week. I couldn't get started. Little did I know God had other plans. My husband came home asking me to get him ready to go on a fast. Which definitely motivated me that it was time. The day before I started the fast, I was asked to bring the word that Sunday. I knew something was breaking off of me. We got through the first day it was rough, but I knew I had to do it. I was really wanting to shake some old things off going into this new season God has me walking in.

The second day I went and picked up our daughter and had to take her to the grocery store. I am teaching here how to prepare meals for herself. We headed to the grocery store, and I was actually ok the laughter with her kept me distracted. We got what we needed and headed home. I started instruction he to wash her hands walked her through how to make her meal and proudly watched her do it. After we finished, she wanted to show her dad. We called him and he was saying how good it looked. I opened the window to get some of the smell out the house. I prayed for God to help him stay focused. He came in talking about the meal but he just went upstairs and didn't give in. I thanked God.

Saturday I was thinking about what I would prepare for the next day. I still owed a day to fasting to focus on who I needed to be after this. I usually bring the tablet in when I shower. I knew it needed to be just me and God. I talked to God as I cleaned my body. When I got out and was drying off. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up. Fell on my spirit. I began singing "Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up. Fill me up until I overflow. I want to run over. I got to run over." I kept singing over and over standing in the bathroom. I began declaring to God different things he showed me and talked about. Telling him he can only get the glory in them if I run over. The thought of God pouring into me that I overflow in every aspect of my life brought me to tears.

I said "I want to have the marriage you showed me God. You will get the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fille me up. I want to be the mother you showed me. You will get the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up. I want to walk successfully and do the things you showed me in the vision for your people. You will get all the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up. God, you said I would break generational curses in my blood line and produce generational wealth. You will get the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up. God, allow people to see you when they see me and help them to turn to you. You will get the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up.

I have no idea how long I was in the bathroom, but our daughter knocked to use it. I just kept singing fill me up God. God help me run over. I got to run over. I wanted to break my fast at the end of the night. I was telling myself that I had did my 72 hours. I knew I need to wait until the next day. It was the worse night of sleep I have had. The neighbors' children were running up and down the stairs all night banging around until like 6:30. I had to be up at 7. The enemy wanted me exhausted not to be able to bring that word. I said "You will get the glory, but God help me run over, I want to run over, I got to run over. Fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up God, fill me up."

Sinners have souls too

Last night in my dreams God showed me the clip of Color Purple, when Shug Avery heard the choir from church and lead everyone from the juke joint to the church. As she marched singing God is trying to tell you something. Everyone that was there with her followed her into the house of God praising the Lord. As she hugged her daddy she said, "see daddy sinners have souls too."

I got up and watched the clip and it brought tears to my eyes. It was so beautiful to see not only her but everyone who looked up to her turned to God at once. I began to pray God help me in the reconciliation between you and the world. I see people stopping in the midst of sin and turning to God. I can't imagine anything more amazing than witnessing the masses dropping the wrong thing for God.

The song penetrated into me "God is trying to tell me something. God is trying to tell me something. Maybe God is trying to tell me something right now." God open my spiritual eyes and ears to follow the next steps you have for me for your glory. Let me work as Deborah. Let me stand in the between place and lead people to you. Let me not get distracted with people's judgement but be strong and courageous in this next season.

Being of service

I woke up to "The potter wants to put you back together again." The last few days God has ben putting songs in my spirit I haven't heard in years. I have been looking them up on YouTube with the lyrics. The song starts out; In case you have fallen by the wayside of life. Dreams and visions shattered, you're all broken inside. You don't have to stay in the shape that you're in. The potter wants to put you back together again. Oh, the potter wants to put you back together again. The simplest way you can serve is telling people who Jesus is and what he has done for your life.

I know everybody thinks they don't have time to serve. Although it would be beautiful to serve in the community. You can begin by serving in your home. Someone is usually struggling a lot closer to home than we would like to admit. Sit with them, let them open up, and pour into them. Stop and give your time to people. Allow people to know they aren't in this world alone. That they are seen and important.

Reach out to the people God puts on your heart. I had messaged someone on my heat a couple of days ago and they never responded. A notification came up on my phone on the text and said follow up. I knew I needed to call. I was prepared to leave a message. She answered we had a vulnerable and transparent conversation. I knew that was exactly what I was supposed to do. She got off the phone saying she felt better. Did it fix anything going on no, but what she knew she was no longer facing it alone. She knew I was going to pray over her and everything going on. God I thank you for putting me in the position to be of service.