Be grateful for how far you have come

Even in the worse days I have had recently. I am still so far from who I used to be. I look at how I go about things and think about things. I never thought I could be in this space, in this joy, and in this peace. I am walking in days I use to pray about.

I know it is hard on the rough days to be grateful. You woke up, if that is where you start in your gratefulness that is a good place. Many people didn't, they had plans for tomorrow and it never came. My pastor said when God breaths breath in your body make that day as productive as possible and that stuck with me.

We take to many days for granted not doing everything we can get done because we think I can do it tomorrow. What if you start moving in your days like tomorrow may never come. What would your day look like then? What would you say to the ones that you love? How would you address situations differently?

Your light will stir up demons

I had an experience last night that I seen this firsthand. I was at a gathering and one of the people there came in and didn't speak. It was their usual. Every time I encounter them, they don't speak to me. So, at this point it was normal. The conversations I was having the kept directing negativity towards me but was not talking to me directly.

There was a point in the night they could no longer hold it in. The came over and told me it was ok if I let my husband come without me sometimes. That they been around each other all their lives and didn't need me watching him. When I went to respond they cut me off to continue to state their opinion. I went back to talking to the person I was talking to. They intervened again into my conversation and started getting agitated and louder.

I was starting to feel passed disrespected and wanted to respond, but it was like God held my tongue. I just decided to get up and remove myself. I felt upset about it, like I should have checked them. I realized it made no difference it was a person I didn't need to be around. No need to correct someone that didn't deserve to be around me.

I woke up this morning to God be praised playing in my head. I watched a video, and she said thank God for fighting your battle. It was like everything just released off of me. I am now in a place where I can't fight my battles like I used to. I now have to let God fight my battles. God make me more like you. Let me hold my tongue to meaningless things, and reserve my energy for the battles you set for me to be in. Show up as you intended me to, and no longer be in places where I no longer belong.

Restored & Renewed

We are walking into a restoration and renewal that will feel like all the pain never happened. The life we will be living will be so covered by God that we will no longer use our energy thinking of the pain of the past. I heard this morning My Ultimate show is About to Begin. It gave me chills.

I can't even imagine what a life like that is like, but that is exactly who God is so big, powerful, and unfathomable. That I can't wrap my mind around his promises. I will just wake up one day and it will be different, better, peaceful. I will be just living it and it will bring me to tears about how graceful God is.

I will be just exhausted the day it comes from how I will shout, praise, and worship. I want to dance like David danced. God deserves nothing less. It brings a smile to my heart just thinking about that my whole life that is all God wanted for me. Joy, peace, and a love I can't explain.

Little ole me? I'm Big Me with God. I can walk bolder. I can think why not me. I will be everything that is instilled in a small-town girl who loves to help...serving on an international scale. God, I thank you.