Victory is mine

Today I woke up so early and had intimate time with God. Today is a day I walk into victory. My conversation was different with God. I woke up with such joy in my heart. God is about to blow my mind. I walked through the morning in complete expectancy. I made it early to my appointment, so I sat outside to read until it was time.

As I was sitting outside I man walked up to me and began telling me dad jokes. He then asked if I would mind if he prayed for me. I told him I would appreciate it. He prayed and then asked for a hug. I stood up to hug him and his wife. He kissed me on my check and told me it was from the love of the Lord. I took it as confirmation.

My workout was hard because I am just getting back started, but I was stronger in it than I was yesterday so that is a plus. I got everything I needed to do done and look forward to sitting down for a minute and eat. I can't wait until my husband gets home and I can spend some time with him. I laid my hand on him this morning as I talked to God. It felt like it brought us closer.

God is amazing and I can't wait to see what he has done.

God, don't give up on me yet

There is a song called Yet by the king will come. I have played that song more than I like to admit. It has such a vulnerability and truth in it, about where I sit with God when I am struggling. The song says at the end "God I know I'm not the same, but you knew that I would change. I think that your trying, to tell me it's ok. I know I have come so far but got so far to go. And with these brand-new scars and broken heart, it's hard to really know. If there is a reason and if I'll ever see it, but I want to believe it. So don't give up on me yet".

To hear someone else pleading with God about knowing they aren't everything they should be but seeking to be there. Being honest about the pain being a distraction, but still wanting to believe there will be a day that it is all behind us. Just asking plainly don't give up on me. It brought me to tears and an understanding God meets us exactly where we are.

I usually lead or follow this song with Let, go and Let God by PJ Morton, You're Bigger by Jekalyn Carr and Lord do it for me by Zacardi Cortez. These have definitely been my go-to lately. I love me some soul and r&b, but there is nothing like gospel. People singing out to God, walk away with nothing left. It is the purest form of music I have ever heard. When it is done with no music it brings me to tears.

This is where we meet people at that are seeking to know God for themselves. The point when we know we as believers still need to cry out and let him know we are struggling. That we will never be perfect here on this earth. We will constantly be working to be more like him until we take our last breath.

Be careful not to judge

It is easy to judge others because you are on the outside looking in. It doesn't mean you should. It is actually counterproductive to walking into God things. Just because we can does not meant it is what we were created for.

A lot of the times we make decisions that we believe are best for our lives. It doesn't mean that they are meant for everyone else. Do your best to do the things you know you should be doing. It may not be meant for the people around you. So don't judge them if it does not match what you are doing.

The only reason you should be opening your mouth is to ask if they need help and what they need you to do. We are too quick to try to say what someone else should be doing when there is something in our own house that still needs correcting. Maybe that is why we constantly have something to work on, so we keep our mouths off of others and work on our own issues.