What do you prioritize?

We often sit in things that we dislike or don't want simple because we do nothing to change them. I am not talking about changing other people. If you don't like how they treat you, why not remove yourself? If you don't like your weight, why not start eating better or get active? If you don't like your circumstances, why not step back and take a look at what got you there?

We want to be rescued, and maybe in large part by all the disney movies we grew up on. Reality is if you want things to change, you must make them priority. You have to get up every day thinking, what can I do today to get one step closer? It won't happen overnight but if you are working towards it daily before you know it. It will be your reality. One day at a time. What's the risk? You have been doing nothing towards it for far too long and you are still miserable. So why not give it a shot. You may fail, this is very true. Not doing anything though, you will never know what you are really capable of. A month ago, I didn't think I could just eat food in its original form for more than 3 days. Look at me now, I ate raw for a month. I would have never known I could if I didn't start.

I was in reflection this morning on what a difference a year made. I will be coming up on my wedding anniversary in a few weeks. I have really been married a year. This year stretched and grew me so much because it made everything God had been talking to me real. I was really a wife. I was really going to have children. I would really have to teach little people that trusted me every day with their life. I couldn't start teaching once they got here, but doing what I should while they were in my womb. I will have land and animals to take care of.

I had to prioritize who I needed to be, to be successful in those places. I had to not prioritize who I had been to keep me from getting there. What is truly important to you? Are you comfortable telling yourself I am to weak to get to where I want to be?

Walking into something without a blueprint

I have been waking up so excited, because I know what I am doing with God's lead is life changing. Not only for me but generations to come. There was a point in my life where I couldn't think outside my current day. My mind has been freed up to the point that I am now thinking about my great great grandchildren. God is so good.

When I started hearing God about how this year was going to look. It was hard for me to wrap my mind around. How could I do what he was showing me. I had never even seen it in real life. I had no blueprint in even how to properly love and care for myself. I didn't sit in that. My soul knew it was true, and I had to just get my mind on board. I had to ask God for help. God came through with unimaginable grace. Every step I took forward. God showed me the next step.

We want to see the full picture, but if we knew what it would take we would opt out. God will only give us what we can handle. God will never overwhelm us. Just like you giving a baby solid food for the first time. You will break it into something they can handle and not small enough for them to choke. You wouldn't give them a steak and let them at it. You have to ease them into it. God will ease us in to what he is calling us to do.

You can not dwell on that you have never seen it done. You have to be excited about the fact that God put something in you that you will be the first. It will be hard, there will be tears, and there will be doubt. Be honest with God about it all, and he will give you what you need to make it to the next assignment. You will now be the blueprint. I am so grateful that God is showing me what he truly sees in me. I pray that I don't let God down.

Congratulations

I am so proud of you. I know we are walking into the season of High School graduation, as are oldest is graduating within the next week. This is for the people that made the decision to destroy generational cycles. You could have said I am not capable like the generations before you but you decided you were going to do something different.

Something is shifting this week for you, as it is for me. Our obedience to do what God has put on our heart to do has not went unnoticed. The subtle changes you have been making will benefit generations to come. I know it was hard but your great great grandchildren will benefit from the decisions you are making right now. If one of your choices was to change your eating habits. We will be around to see our great greats with our own eyes. It is not a diet but a lifestyle change that we have committed to. You can not unknown the things you have learned in this process.

For those that have chosen to avoid negativity, change bad habits, and walk into a new environment. I am so proud of you. When it has been all you know. I know how hard it is to decide to want something different. Navigating what it will look like trying to reframe daily interactions. Choosing light over everything your mind is telling you should be completely opposite to what you have been taught. I know it takes everything in you not to fall back into routine daily, but you are doing it.

You will be the new of a lineage. That will never know the trauma, fear, and lovelessness you faced by experience. Only by the story of your journey. We will be able to tell the story as a testimony no longer carrying the pain. Full of peace and joy because you will be living in the prayers of your past. Surrounded by the love of people that came from the healed, healthy, and safe version of you. Smiling at God from ear to ear because you are living in all the desires he put on your heart.