Walking in Gratefulness

So today I have officially made it to a week of my raw eating cleanse. 21 more days to go but I feel absolutely amazing, and am so proud of myself. I woke up got my water in, read my bible, wrote my understanding of the word, and my thanks to God. I laid there for a minute to hear from God. As I laid there he stared flooding me with ideas. I laid there a little longer, and he showed me on the stage speaking to people. I sat down and asked them could they still see me. I wanted them to know I was just like them. I felt that warm hug from God about staying humble. The glory belongs to God any situation I am in he is just using me. It reminded me of the time God first gave me that vision. I was amazed and confidently shared it with my boyfriend at the time, and he asked me "how would you be speaking to people and have not accomplished anything?". I knew then I could no longer share my vision but it never made me believe less that it would not happen. I was going to be a public speaker, just had to wait on God to show me how.

I heard Pastor Linderia Watts-Mobley speak on how she got her first speaking engagement recently. How she talked to God about how. That she stumbles over her words. When it was time she said the gift just came out of her because it is God moving. It made me think of Moses and how he spoke to God about not being well spoken. But GOD. God is just waiting to see if we will do what he asks. I am living proof. I would have never said I could run a YouTube page, Write a book, Self publish a book, record and produce my own audio book, and design my website. As soon as I began Gods grace covered me and got me through it all, and I am now sitting on the other side. So grateful that God decided to partner with me on this journey. Who am I?, to such a miraculous God. He reminds me daily I am his unique creation to do the thing he specifically made me for. That in relation with him, he is my power source and I can do anything. My God can't fail. As long as I give him the glory he will walk me through anything he speaks to me about. Gods grace carries us where we fall short. I am so grateful that I am in this day, because I never seen myself here. I never knew I was worthy to believe in myself greater than just maintaining. God gave me dreams back. That I can know God for myself, be in a healthy marriage, have a healthy and strong body eating natural, birth my children like he created me without fear, be resourceful with anything he speaks into me, and genuinely love myself and others again. God is so good.

While in my morning worship, she spoke of every time you feel you deserve something. I finished it with God deserves praise before she could even get it out her mouth. I am walking in the prayers I prayed for in previous years. Hallelujah to the God that never forgot about me. I wake up in the morning and am in awe of everything God has done in me. All the things that were apart of my everyday that I don't even think about anymore. How humbly confident I am. I know who I am and who I belong to so nothing can shake me. God has also walked me through a journey that I know there is no one beneath me. All it would take is for them to hear God and we would be the same. To God be the glory. I can't wait to get outside and put my feet in the grass, take in the sun, breath deeply, and sit in the greatest gift God ever gave me. Life.

Shifting into my New

Today is May 1st and I have just been flooded with gratefulness to God. My site launches today. I am so excited to start this journey with y'all. So let me catch you up. Last June I married the love of my life Eric. I was blessed with three bonus babies that are not babies at all. In February of 2023 I received God filling me with the Holy Spirit and began to walk life anew. It has changed everything for the better. Especially my relationship with my Husband. I am still a work in progress, but my journey in our 4 year relationship prior to marriage and the first 6 months of our marriage is what my book is about. 33 My Year of Redemption. I had been through a lot. You can pick up most of my story on my YouTube the link to all my socials are at the top of the homepage, and are on most pages I believe. Anywho this has been the best year of my life. I always knew I had Gods ear but to be in relationship with God is something completely different. God has just been working survival mode out of me, and showing me who he sees and created me to be. It has been absolutely amazing. Even with the warfare. When God begins to shine your light the enemy starts working extremely hard to make sure it is not seen. Majority with just making you doubt yourself and that you are hearing God at all. The flesh is definitely weak and anything you can be tempted by will be offered to take you off track. For example I started a 30 day raw fast April 25. Ya girl has been doing great. Yesterday I decided to fast. I was fighting my flesh all day that I was already eating clean. That I didn't need to be fasting. I made it through the day y'all with just water and tea. Then I laid down. When I tell you ever craving I could have ever had hit me. I mean I seen and smelled the meals. When I combated the thoughts of the absolutely ridiculous meals because I have put in to much work on this cleanse to throw it all away. Then vegan options started flowing in. I really was thinking. Well that isn't so bad, but then my brain kicked back in that I committed to 30 days of raw eating. It really is bigger than me. God has been talking to me about this for years, but I am walking into the time I am ready to have children. I want to give them the best chance. No processed food, No sugar, no meat. I will carry them and nourish them before they even have a say so in what their experience will be here. They deserve the best. When they are old enough to make the choice for themselves (as in buying it) they can. I feel my best clean eating. My thoughts are clear, I am able to handle my emotions, I am able to communicate properly, my mood is great, I have the most energy, productive, and I glow. I want that for them as well. Well I said all that to say. Welcome. I am very transparent and open. No shame in my game I lived it, learned from it, and am the woman I am because of it. So engage. Share your stories. I hope I help you navigate some things in this hard world. I also hope to learn some things from you. I will tell you that my relationship with God has changed this thing called life around. I tried to do it on my own for way to long. Just communicating with God daily has made all the difference.