Sitting at the feet of Wisdom

We should all be like Solomon and ask God for wisdom. Let us not forget that we are surrounded by elders full of wisdom as well. One thing I love about the African culture is they leave the babies with the elders. The babies keep the elders young, and they pour wisdom into the babies. I will incorporate that into my family with my grandchildren.

Although all my grandparents are gone. God has blessed me with my Pastor. She is funny, no nonsense, ball of fire that id full of wisdom. The first thing I picked up when I met her is she is going to say it plain. She doesn't want you to miss what she is putting down and I love her for that. She came into my life when I was navigating walking into marriage. I thank God for her. Had she not I might have missed my blessing. I had no one else in my life that would have stopped me from making the biggest mistake of my life by not getting married. Other than God because he was not playing with me and orchestrated this divine encounter.

She has been a spiritual sounding board for me. Even if I don't bring up the issue by the time I have left her I have an answer or a sense of peace about it. I sat with her yesterday. She has been sick, and she hasn't wanted to get anyone else sick, so I hadn't seen her. God put it on my heart heavy that I needed to see her. I found out after I left that she had tried to reschedule but I didn't see the message until after I was leaving her house. We talked for hours and even though she wouldn't let me hug her putting my eyes on her and talking was mor than enough. We talked about a little bit of everything. She thanked me for coming by when I left. I told her this visit had done just as much for me.

I feel honored to know her. God had set up for us to both be stranded at the Orlando airport together. Her daughter came and got her from the Cincinnati airport, and they offered to give me a ride home. That car ride home and the invitation to church changed my life. She is transparent about her struggles and mistakes. Open about her past and it is so refreshing to me that I can just talk to her about it all without feeling judgment or shame. Wisdom is putting knowledge to action. I thank God I get to reap the benifits of hers.

Dancing in the Rain

I used to play in the rain with my siblings when we were kids. My mom also used to shampoo us up and send us out to wash our hair in a good rain because she said we had hard water. I didn't know what that meant when I was a kid, but I enjoyed being in the rain. It was so peaceful and during those hot summers so needed. I remember when I was dating my husband the first time we danced in the rain. Once our neighbor's grandson left his toy swords out in the yard and we grabbed them during a good summer rain and had a dual.

Some people run from the rain, and I am right there with you in theses freezing winter rains. I always wonder why people didn't just enjoy a good rain when it is warm out. I hear y'all now about your hair, your clothes getting wet, and the mud. You miss the goodness of it thinking about the bad. I am no realizing this same thing about life. God lets the rain fall for things to grow. As much as people hate the rain what would the world look like without it. I am one who prays for the rain and think of all the blessing God is sending with it. Reign/ rain over and on me God.

I have realized what the greatest storms in my life created me to be. To be who I am. To make it where I am. I wouldn't have without the storms. The storms showed me where I was vulnerable in covering. Allowed me to fortify what was exposed. It also showed me the best angle to view it from. I learned how to find comfort in it. That sometimes all it takes it to burn a good fire to calm the roars of thunder in a storm. In the middle of it I can still be grateful for all I have and the people that chose to join me there.

New Perspective

I have got to a place where I see differently. All the subtle changes God worked out in me has changed everything around me. When everything started shifting it felt so painful. I began losing people and felt like I was losing myself. I also knew that it had to happen, but the knowing didn't make it easier. I was in a grieving process for a while in dealing with it. It was needed to let everything that could not grow with me go.

I was then able to reflect on who I needed to be. Who was I without the things and the people I let go of. What was I still carrying that I needed to let go of? What did I need to heal to get to my greatest version? Who did I have to be to bring the life and people I seen in the vision God gave me? What did I have to do? I had to surrender and ask God for every step.

This changed everything. I literally wake up every day and seek what God wants me to do in that day. I give it my all. Realizing more that it will never be perfect and having grace for where I fall short. Not dwelling in the mistake of my day but what was it showing me and moving forward. The more I have let go of control. The more God pours and shows me what to focus my attention on. There is a point you have to realize you will always be a student to God in everything you do.

Dwelling with God has really given air to my flame. My fire is burning bigger and brighter than it ever has. I have also become the softest version of myself finding the strength in my femineity. I never knew how much of my energy I was draining trying to control everything and moving in masculine energy. I was constantly tired because I wasn't moving in who I was created to be but who the world forced me to be. I feel so blessed that God cares that I found this place, but it is all for his glory.