New Perspective

I have got to a place where I see differently. All the subtle changes God worked out in me has changed everything around me. When everything started shifting it felt so painful. I began losing people and felt like I was losing myself. I also knew that it had to happen, but the knowing didn't make it easier. I was in a grieving process for a while in dealing with it. It was needed to let everything that could not grow with me go.

I was then able to reflect on who I needed to be. Who was I without the things and the people I let go of. What was I still carrying that I needed to let go of? What did I need to heal to get to my greatest version? Who did I have to be to bring the life and people I seen in the vision God gave me? What did I have to do? I had to surrender and ask God for every step.

This changed everything. I literally wake up every day and seek what God wants me to do in that day. I give it my all. Realizing more that it will never be perfect and having grace for where I fall short. Not dwelling in the mistake of my day but what was it showing me and moving forward. The more I have let go of control. The more God pours and shows me what to focus my attention on. There is a point you have to realize you will always be a student to God in everything you do.

Dwelling with God has really given air to my flame. My fire is burning bigger and brighter than it ever has. I have also become the softest version of myself finding the strength in my femineity. I never knew how much of my energy I was draining trying to control everything and moving in masculine energy. I was constantly tired because I wasn't moving in who I was created to be but who the world forced me to be. I feel so blessed that God cares that I found this place, but it is all for his glory.