Expectancy of Harvest

You have to be in expectancy for what God has shown you. You have to also believe that God got you. God's will, God's bill. I know that we live in a time that we no longer believe that God can move on our behalf because we live in hustle culture. God has given us gifts that he needs to be used over what the world instructs us to do.

I know it is hard. I am with you. Everything that God is pouring into me is complete opposite of anything I have ever known. I know it is God because nothing in my life has said these things are possible, but my heart and mind can not shake that this is going to be my life. I know God's word can not return to him void. He showed me and I know it is happening. Not in the future but now. My life will be different before the year is out and this is also for some of you. I know that this may not even been seen until after everything God has done in my life. This will be evidence of when his hand moved in my life.

I am ready to go wherever God is sending me because I want to be where he is. I know that is where everything will come to fruition. I have been going through warfare in my home. My husband has been wanting me to go back to work. I know God called me off my job to focus on building my relationship with him and growing spiritually to walk into being a kingdom ambassador for the Kingdom of God. I am meant to be an entrepreneur in a way that my family and my community has never seen. My husband's frustration with me has me feeling my obedience will break my marriage. I also know that this is not the place that I will receive my breakthrough.

I know my obedience to God is the answer. God will always have the final say in my life. It looks delusional to those who don't have faith in God. There are different levels even spiritually. I have been getting confirmations daily on what God has already shown me. The way I have getting messages from the Holy Spirit in how to pray. The change in my mindset and the way things no longer bother me. I am dealing with the same God that did the works of miracles through the bible. The same God that sent his son to cover us because he knew there was nothing we could do to save ourselves. The same God that sent his Holy Spirit down that we may have a personal relationship with him. To some people this is just talk. I believe it full heartedly.

Don't let a flesh wound kill you

Let's talk plain. I have been abused mentally, physically, emotionally, and sexually. I have been without my father and mother. I was in a cult. I was in foster care and was on my own before I finished high school. I have been without utilities being on. I have slept in my car. I have had to use toilet paper because I did not have money for pads. I have given myself away to people who didn't deserve me both sexually and in friendship. Gave to people who were glad to take my last. I have had plans to turn my life around by going to college, joining the air force, and getting a career. I "failed" at them all.

I began to heal from the trauma of my past, getting my anger in check, and began to set boundaries. Foster care caused the separation I need from my family. For me to realize what I grew up in was not normal. Just because we grew up in a generation where abandonment and neglect was happening across the board. Do not make it your normal. Something in me would not allow it to move past me in my lineage.

I said all that to say you are not broken. You are wounded. Do not let a flesh wound kill you. See it for what it is. You were attacked. They wounded you but it is a superficial wound. It is not fatal. Now you have two choices: Clean out the injury and bandage it up, or you can just give up and let the wound get infected and allow it to kill you slowly. Sit in the pain and let it swallow you up, and keep asking the ones who hurt you why? They do not have answers for you. They are still stuck in their own trauma. You have to answer for yourself will this be a part of your life.

I pray that you get to the point that you can talk to God from a healed place before I did. Talk to God about what you need to do. He will take it from where you left off with healing you for the life he created you to live. You have to be open and let him in like you never have been able to let someone in before. Seek him daily, get in your bible, and strengthen your relationship. I heard today you don't deserve love because of what I do but because I am.

Supernatural

Having a relationship with God you have to believe past what you can see physically. As my relationship grows stronger, I learn it more and more. Having faith is believing in the supernatural. You have to get to a place where your spiritual eyes are opened. You are able to see things that God is showing you and believe that he can't lie. If he speaks it, it cannot return to him void.

Last night I went to a service, and she said that her children watch sci fi and she told them the writers are not that creative. The stories they are telling are real. I have known this for years the truth can never be hidden. So, what they do is tell it to us in a way that e rather believe it is fiction then open or minds that it can be real. We can't handle any more than the problems of our everyday to think about what is going on around us.

It does not change that it is. What would happen if we stopped focusing on the problems of the hamster wheel and begin to trust God for all our needs like everything else in nature does? Would it be an uncomfortable transition? Without question it would be because this is how we know life to be. God wants so much greater for us. No, I'm not talking about living in the woods. How this world is going now that might very well be our reality. I am talking about believing God for we says we are. Made in his image. Why would we be begging for jobs and scrapping by?

We have put our self in a place that we have been enslaved no longer by chains but by western standards and materialism. Not even by things that will bring wealth, just accumulating things that have someone else's name and brand on them that makes it valuable in your mind. We have let them take over food production and feed us poison. We have let them miseducate us and create employees.

Spiritually we are greater than the things of this world. If we sat in the spiritual. Just dwelled in the supernatural for a portion of our day I believe that it would awaken something in us as a whole. To look to God over man for the answers. Know that we are divinely gifted. That God put something inside of each one of us that we have let a certificate or a 9 to 5 bury. There is another realm that lives inside of you. Tap in and see where it takes you.