God chose me

I saw a video today that was talking about God didn't chose us by accident. When the devil showed up asking about you. God knew you had been through so much greater that you would not fold. When he thought "who should I put on the front line?" He chose me. He knew after all that he had brought me through I would give him glory even in the storm.

I just began to cry about how honored I am that he picked me. I know I haven't done everything right. I even talk to him about not letting the provision he gives cause division in our relationship, because of where I come from. He constantly reminds me I come from him. My parents were just portals to get me here.

He showed me a glimpse of what it would look like, so I had something to look forward to in this crazy world. I made a video yesterday that said I feel like I am going to walk into it tomorrow. Today I walk in expectancy that it is already done. I will never have to borrow again. I will never need for anything. I am going to walk on the land God has for me. It will be fruitful and abundant. Our businesses will be blessed. Our wealth will be generational. I will be able to help anyone God sends my way.

God thank you for choosing me.

He knows my name

I have been in completely gratitude just thinking about God knows me personally. You know how peolple react when a celebrity reposts them or touches them at a show. Baby I'm falling out, okay. At of all his creations he never lost sight of me.

I have literally been eating vegetables growing that I did not plant. God is a provider, and we may be looking for something bigger, but I want to remind you of to be grateful of what he is doing right now. I have been seeing rainbows in the most unusual places the last few days. It's just God reminding me that they are on the way.

How amazing is it that God is so big that he can make sure all his children are watched over, comforted, filled with love, given direction, and reassurance. I just sit in awe of God daily. We need God, God doesn't need us he is who is with or without us. I am completely changed and different with God. I never want to be without him.

I seen a message yesterday that was talking about Jesus asking God "why have though forsaken me?" That it wasn't about his pain and suffering, but the sky had went dark for 3 hours and he didn't hear from God. He was terrified to be without God that he called out to him. I want to be like Jesus I don't want to be without God for any period of time.

Working to be your best Version

I have been on this journey to reach my best version most of my life. There were definitely some points when I took detours to, I just want live lane. I always come back to working on myself to be better. I got faced with today that I don't even know who I am yet. I have yet to experience the situations or the people I need to become that.

I have worked for years to heal from the traumas of my past but honestly all that lead me to was to be the opposite of the things I despised. Showing he people that hurt me that I would be better than them. I have scratched the surface of who I may be from the glimpses God has given me of what my life will look like. God is still holding out on what I am still not ready to know.

I woke laid in bed this morning just thanking God for allowing me to know him. I put my hand on my husband and God put on my heart to pray for his healing. I prayed that God heal the things he cannot speak. My husband is shifting but I will be a part of his betterment as he will be a part of mine. I prayed that I be the wife he needs me to be. Tears just began to fall.

All the things I have been through I never sought help for me. Outside of God that is. When I lost my baby, I knew I needed help. I sought counseling. I would have never thought that something so painful could make me better. My first child led me to seek help for myself so that I could be my best version for all that came after. God, I love you for how you cover me through my walk, and hold my hand as I become my best version.