Working to be your best Version

I have been on this journey to reach my best version most of my life. There were definitely some points when I took detours to, I just want live lane. I always come back to working on myself to be better. I got faced with today that I don't even know who I am yet. I have yet to experience the situations or the people I need to become that.

I have worked for years to heal from the traumas of my past but honestly all that lead me to was to be the opposite of the things I despised. Showing he people that hurt me that I would be better than them. I have scratched the surface of who I may be from the glimpses God has given me of what my life will look like. God is still holding out on what I am still not ready to know.

I woke laid in bed this morning just thanking God for allowing me to know him. I put my hand on my husband and God put on my heart to pray for his healing. I prayed that God heal the things he cannot speak. My husband is shifting but I will be a part of his betterment as he will be a part of mine. I prayed that I be the wife he needs me to be. Tears just began to fall.

All the things I have been through I never sought help for me. Outside of God that is. When I lost my baby, I knew I needed help. I sought counseling. I would have never thought that something so painful could make me better. My first child led me to seek help for myself so that I could be my best version for all that came after. God, I love you for how you cover me through my walk, and hold my hand as I become my best version.