Walking in your appointing and not your anointing

We have got to a time we are so happy that someone is giving us a title, that are no longer looking to walk in our anointing. There was a time when everyone looked to God for direction on how to live. We are getting to a point where people don't even want to thank God for the good happening in there life. If you are one of those people thinking, what did God do? He gave you breath to walk int that day.

God allowed you to see it, gave you the opportunity to walk into it, he cheered you on when you accepted it, and talked to you about how to maintain it. Were you able to hear him? Or were you so focused on yourself getting there alone. Did you thank your boss before you thanked God? Did you thank your friends and family before you thanked God?

God has had me in a process that I love God more than anything. I know without God there is nothing else. No me, no husband, no marriage, no home, no car, no family or friends. I listen for God daily. I seek God for instructions. I want to know what he thinks of my days, decisions, work, love, and behavior. I have a heart for God that I want to be living full in my anointing.

I tried for years to be appointed in going to college, the air force, and even in getting promoted in my job. It all failed because that was never Gods plan for my life. They were tools for me to see different thing I would have never experienced otherwise. To see that things could be different. It was all purposed for me to see man and know only God had the answers. I no longer care about being appointed by man. I focus daily if I am walking in my anointing.

Jesus is it

I have walked through a lot of phases of trying to connect with God. I had always known of God but it wasn't until I got back into the bible. That God began to reveal himself to me. The pouring that has taken place when I got back to the point of where he started me. I was born and raised a Christian. Church hurt and foster care set me on my own path. I talked to God but mainly though my struggles.

God began to shift me. He always put it in my heart to serve and to inspire others that have heavy hearts. I just counted up to God putting it my heart that I was going to be good no matter what the world had done. No matter the neglect, abandonment, lovelessness I felt I wouldn't be that to anyone else. I even told God I wouldn't get married or have children if I was going to bleed on them from things they had nothing to do with.

I knew there was something going on with my family through generations. There is a pain and trauma that has been being passed down and I didn't want any part of it. I thought the only way I could stop it was to not continue, it was going to end with me even if I had to be alone. God showed me it was going to stop by me healing up, making the choice that it stops with me, and raising children that would shift it from me on down.

I didn't feel strong enough for that task. Honestly, I didn't know if I wanted the headache of trying to fix it. God reminded me he sent a piece of himself sown to show us it could be done. It wouldn't be easy but if it meant enough to you and you trusted God enough to see you through it could be done. I started calling on Jesus again for help.

My life started shifting he cleaned me out to be able to think straight, he started pouring discernment in me that I no longer gave excuses for why people didn't treat me right, but gave me the heart to pray for them, he began to pour a love I never knew into me because I was open to receive it. I called on Jesus to intercede to God about my marriage. He did just that. I walked into covenant I could have never imagined.

The way God has moved on my life since we became one under this blessed union is absolutely amazing. I never know I could be this person I am today. Able to forgive everyone that hurt me and not think about it anymore. It, no longer ways me down to make bad decisions. It no longer taints the vision on my future because I know something knew starts with me. If no one else seen it, I did and that is why it was my responsibility.

I thank Jesus for making the sacrifice for me. Even though he knew the pain and hurt he was going to endure. The betrayal he knew was coming. The way people hated him for trying to open their eyes to see God for themselves. The way they used him for healing even if they did not believe he was the son of God. As he was beaten and then carried that cross, I can only imagine the thoughts going through his head. He was scared, broken, confused, and even asked God why he had forsaken him. When they nailed him to the cross, he asked God to forgive them for they know not what they do. That is who I believe gave his life for mine to be transformed. Since I have decided that I have lived a life I never knew I could.

It just looks like you are trapped

Last night I went and heard a man speak Elder Micheal Patton. He said it just looks like you are trapped. He really didn't have to say anything else that broke something off me I can't explain. He said we focus on the destination, but God is developing us in the journey. That the opposition we face is developing us for what God created us for.

He said often time we are looking to be appointed instead of walking in our anointing. That we should be worried about what God created us for, but we are more excited about what man appoints us to. Make sure you are walking in what God wants you walking in. It is dangerous to be walking in someone else's blessing. Now he dropped a whole lot of gems, but you had to be there.

The basis of his message though was out of Exodus 14. Moses freeing the Israelites from Egypt. That once they got to the water and felt pharaoh coming up behind them. They began to panic but as Moses cried out to God, he told him what he needed was in his hand. He used the staff and split the sea. As Moses got to the other side and closed the red sea and pharaoh and his army drowned.

They thought it was over when they felt the army rumbling towards them. What the enemy meant for Israelites (death) is what pharaoh and his army walked right into. God will work it out for our good. Next time you find yourself in a situation and you wonder why God has put your back against the wall. Remember it is for your development. It only looks like you are trapped.