Seek God and he pours

Last night or this morning rather. God began to just pour in me. I just laid in the bed next to my husband and let God give me everything he was tryin to tell me. I was just out done with how much God loves me to give me instruction on how to move.

There was a time when I use to cry out to God and could not even hear him because my pain and heartbreak had everything I had left to give. I wasn't able to sit quiet to hear him. As I lay there and received everything he had to offer me. I just began to praise him. God is the strongest love, the best advisor, greatest teacher, my best friend, and a protector I never knew I could have.

It took me seeking God with everything I had. There couldn't be a day that I didn't talk to him. Couldn't be a decision that I didn't ask him about. Couldn't be a thing I was struggling with that I couldn't discuss with him. Couldn't be a thing that brought me joy that I didn't thank him for. There is not a thing in my life good or bad that God wasn't the first one I wanted to talk about it with.

When you put everything you think you know down, and just ask God what is the best thing for you to do. How to wake up, what your routine should be, how to move, how to love, how to talk, how to greet, and how to be the child he created you to be. When you buy anything you look at the instructions of the creator. Why are you not seeking who created you on instruction. When you do God will pour not only who to be but how to get to it.

God is the one and only

These last few days I have been feeling God moving. I have seen it in the spiritual realm. God will get the glory for it all. God woke me up to the situation I was sitting in. God cleaned me up and got me sober. God got me down the aisle. God got me focused and turned me into a writer. God had me launch a website. God made me a doula, and now has me working on things for generations that may never meet me.

God is so amazing I sit in awe of him daily. I never will know a love like the one he shows me. I will never know the forgiveness and mercy that he shows me from man. I will never be comforted like the way he wraps his arms around me. I will never receive the peace he showers me with when I come to him worried from no one but him. Oh, and the grace he gives me that carries me through any instruction he has given me.

God is constantly making me a better person, wife, mother, daughter, and sibling. Making me a better kingdom ambassador for the world to see who he is. Even last night I got some heavy news. I sat with it for a second because I am empathetic, and my husband is very unemotional. So, when I finally went to him. He just started responding like I knew he would. I just excused myself. He came downstairs. God gave it to me that I understand it is hard for you to process emotions for yourself. I'm not asking you to feel it with me or fix it. I just need to feel safe in me feeling what I feel. He just wrapped his arms around me tight and told me he loved me. Gave me a few kisses and that was exactly what I needed.

We want to see miracles from God. I knew in that moment that was nothing but God. For me to be able to express my need without frustration because my emotions were high, and him just be there in a way he isn't used to. My God is awesome.

Legacy isn't selfish

God has me in a place where me and my husband are preparing for our lineage. The more I work and look into things. If you are trying to leave legacy it has to about your last name not your first. You can't be working towards things selfishly. Your great grand children have to be in your forethought.

This is coming from a person that doesn't even have a child yet. You have to move as if they can need you any minute. You have to prepare that if something goes wrong 100 years down the line, that they come from you and you want them to be taken care of.

It can't be about your interest first. Now me and my husband love to travel and experience life together. We will definitely live our life but before the next trip gets plan this trust will be set up. The trust comes before us purchasing a new home, or vehicles. Anything going into our name will be set in trust for anyone that comes from us.

Not juts our children, but their children, and their children. I will be setting up a Dynasty trust anything we live can not be separated and destroyed with the next generation no agreeing. It will be left for who steps up and puts family first. The one that will care for the land, home, and business we started. If they chose that isn't want they want that is their decision, but the ones to put family before themselves. Will not worry about a thing. God gave me inheritance for those who come from me. As long as they put God first he will speak to them about how to keep it going.