Taking in the moment

Sometimes we get so caught up in what next week, next month, and even next year is going to look like that we lose sight of today. My husband proposed to the fireworks going off 2 years ago. I was literally watching them when I turned around to him on his knee. I sent him Happy Proposal Day yesterday as I heard the fireworks going crazy. He asked me, was that a thing? I told him know but I will always think of it as I hear and see the fireworks. He replied I guess it's our thing.

He worked late yesterday, but he was off today. I got up early to put gas in the car before it got hot out. Pro tip it is better to get gas when the temperature id cooler and pump slow. Anyway, while I was out, I decided I was going to make today special and picked up a few things. I got home and got right to work. He came down to see what I was doing lol. It didn't matter because it was still something he was going to enjoy.

He went and got on the game, and I continued to prepare. I brought him some fruit and water to get his day started right. I laid back down for a while and listened to him play the game. I will bother him when I get back up. For now, we will both enjoy the time we need to ourselves.

I look forward to us enjoying the rest of the day together. I also enjoy this moment knowing he is getting the day off, and I prepared a beautiful day for us. After a chill out for a little bit. Work done for the day. Just me and Hubby time to look forward to.

God don't play about me

God really don't play about me. Even when I wasn't doing the things I needed to like trusting him full heartedly, building my relationship with God, and living how I knew I should. God did not play about me. I always felt the shade. I was never naive because God would hip me to game. I always felt trouble coming and knew how to get up and through lol.

Now that my relationship with God is growing daily. I really be going through stuff like little do you know playing with me is bad for you my guy. I don't be saying it aloud just thinking it in my head but maybe I should because maybe they don't know. Like everyday encounters. A few weeks ago I went to get a tire plugged. My husband told me what it should cost, but I didn't ask the man before he started working what the price was. He up-charged me. Old Tasha would have definitely argued with him. Natasha looked at him gave him the money and knew he would get what he had coming.

It is real stress free this new era. Even if I speak my piece. I am not sitting and dwelling on anything. This is not a moment for me. God got it covered. I just hope you know who you are playing over. Yesterday something happened that hurt my feelings. Instead of getting mad I just thought this has to do with them. I will not think less of myself or the things I know I should have. This is a loss for them. God don't play about me.

God can handle it

I woke up to the song "He can handle it". I know he can, and he will. He can handle it. Played over and over in my head. I have been hearing things that I know I cannot make happen on my own. It can feel overwhelming, but only because I think about how I can make it happen. It won't be me is even capable of making it happen.

Faith has to take the front seat. I have been writing the last couple of days God I trust and belive you for it. If I try to do it on my own, I will experience delay because my doubt will get in the way of God's plan. I have to continue to tell myself God can handle it.

I know I have to share this because someone else is in this same place. Feeling overwhelmed by their doubt. It is not about you, your wisdom, or what you are capable of. This is about the glorification of God. God cannot fail. There is nothing to big for the God who created the heavens of the earth. That knew the plan for you before you entered your mother's womb. That is who you have doubt in?

God can handle your biggest desire. I began to pray God allow me to experience what you have planned for me. I know my thoughts can't fathom what God sees for me. I think out of survival, I think out of lack, and what I feel I deserve. Even the best I can imagine cannot touch what God sees for me. God allow me to experience what you had planned for me. God can handle it.