The power of Rest

I have been going, and especially over the weekend did not get the best sleep. I came home and a nap was the first thing on my agenda. I didn't want to sleep to long because the girls were here, and I wanted to spend time with them. So, I went down for a couple of hours and got up to see what was going on with them.

Yesterday, Eric was off because of Memorial Day. I took advantage of that good sleep cuddling with him. I woke up feeling like my day was behind though. Even though I got everything done. I felt like it could have been done earlier had I not slept in. Well Eric took another day, and I slept in again. I woke up feeling panicked. It was just going on ten. It felt like I had slept until 1.

I got up and got working on what I needed to do, and just laughed. I have been sleeping in because I am tired. My body and mind were exhausted. Instead of honoring that and being glad I had the opportunity to rest I began beating myself up about it. The work and energy I exert tired is 50% at best. instead of being glad I was charging up to 100% I felt guilty.

We, myself included need to make sure we are doing our best to make sure our cups are full. So, we can be blessing to people with our overflow. To many of us have watched people pour from an almost empty cup and wear it like a badge of honor. That is not my portion, and you should not let it be your either. My portion is I will pour from my overflow. I will take care of me, so I am giving the best care to others. I know my worry is from watching people sleep to much from depression. I am not depressed I was tired, and I will not let fear get the best of me. To walk around exhausted because I am afraid of what it may look like.

Surrounded in your Purpose

Over the weekend I headed down to Louisiana for a Doula Seminar. I was excited about being around other woman that believed in home birthing because I feel very alone in it in my everyday. I have been looking forward to it for months.

I got there and literally could not wait for the next day to be in it. I got up early and started preparing. I smiled the whole time getting ready. I decided to just take the bus. I got outside and it was pulling up. The directions I had got from google maps said I had to ride two but the second bus was right here. I asked the driver, she said I would have to ride to end and she would turnaround and could drop me right there. She said come on. As I road through the city and watched the interactions on the bus they even made me smile. Everybody talked like family.

I finally made it to my stop, but I was lost. The gps was saying I was here but I didn't see it. I walked into the store that was on the corner and asked the cashier and the customer that was standing in there. If they recognized the address. They said I was in the right place and just had to walk toward the lake. As I walked out the woman said let her ask her husband and walked out with me. She said they would just take me. I told her they did not have to it was saying I was in the right area.

As she was opening the door. A car was pulling up, and before they said anything I told the woman they were going where I was going. They pulled up and asked about the address I was looking for. I laughed and asked could I ride over with them. They were from Canada. We rode around looking for a few minutes. Shaundel (maybe spelled wrong) seen a cop and said she would ask him. She walked over and asked and we got pointed in the right direction. We were in the right place the whole time. It was just further back off the road.

As we pulled up we were the first ones there. We all laughed about how we knew, we were all going to the same place. Jennifer said Gods timing. I laughed because as soon as I walked out they pulled up. We talked about what we wanted to learn. The doors opened, and before I knew it. The place was filled with women, partners, and children. All working toward the same thing. Bringing life into the world the best way we could. I felt I had waited my whole life for this. To be surrounded by people that believed like you did that the original way is not only possible but for the best.

Are you preparing?

Everything we want and desire is going to call for a new version of ourselves. What are you doing to prepare? Are you looking into what it will take to have it? Are you scoping out the location Have you got a new mindset?

You have to begin to move in a way that you will be ready when the opportunity presents itself. It will come with obedience to God. I have been working on things in this last year strictly out of obedience. I didn't know why. What would come of it. Or what it was for. I just listened and gave it all i got. Well, most days anyway.

I am now beginning to see what it was for. Some of it being a year in progress. I kept working on it though. Had I not been giving something to it consistently I would not be confident in what I had today. If I was even capable for that matter. I am though. God has empowered me that I am ready to kick down doors. There is a reason I am in any room that I walk in, and I have purpose in it.

I am heading out on a new endeavor this weekend. A year ago, I would have felt I had nothing to offer. Just been there to learn and get closer to what I did not see myself capable of. God has prepared me that now I can walk into this with my head held high knowing I will be able to shift the room. With God partnering with me I cannot doubt who I am. I will bring light into this place like only I can. I am walking in divine appointment.