The power of Rest

I have been going, and especially over the weekend did not get the best sleep. I came home and a nap was the first thing on my agenda. I didn't want to sleep to long because the girls were here, and I wanted to spend time with them. So, I went down for a couple of hours and got up to see what was going on with them.

Yesterday, Eric was off because of Memorial Day. I took advantage of that good sleep cuddling with him. I woke up feeling like my day was behind though. Even though I got everything done. I felt like it could have been done earlier had I not slept in. Well Eric took another day, and I slept in again. I woke up feeling panicked. It was just going on ten. It felt like I had slept until 1.

I got up and got working on what I needed to do, and just laughed. I have been sleeping in because I am tired. My body and mind were exhausted. Instead of honoring that and being glad I had the opportunity to rest I began beating myself up about it. The work and energy I exert tired is 50% at best. instead of being glad I was charging up to 100% I felt guilty.

We, myself included need to make sure we are doing our best to make sure our cups are full. So, we can be blessing to people with our overflow. To many of us have watched people pour from an almost empty cup and wear it like a badge of honor. That is not my portion, and you should not let it be your either. My portion is I will pour from my overflow. I will take care of me, so I am giving the best care to others. I know my worry is from watching people sleep to much from depression. I am not depressed I was tired, and I will not let fear get the best of me. To walk around exhausted because I am afraid of what it may look like.