Confidence from God

From my background and feeling out of place I became a people pleaser. Not in the way that is usually displayed. I have always been able to speak my mind and enjoyed my own company. I was a people pleaser in a way that I would shrink and not be my full self when I felt like it made people uncomfortable. When I saw that my full self, made others feel like they had to compete for attention. I wasn't competing. I was just being me but the shady comments and acts for attention I seen. I would take the que and get quit.

God has been working on me with that. I should never shrink down they should work on whatever is making them feel less, because it wasn't me. I am a Biz Markie type hype man to people I know and strangers. It was just my presence that was offending them, and I can't make that my problem. I have to show up authentically me. There is a genuineness that comes with the purest form of me that I am supposed to give to the world.

God is showing me I am no one's pushover. I am there for a purpose and I have to show up fully. I can no longer shrink to make people feel more confident. I have to show up fully so the people vibrating on that frequency see me and attract to me. That I draw a strong confident circle around me. The people that my energy makes feel uncomfortable should listen to that. Something about me triggers them and they should move around. I am a powerhouse but with as much strength comes just as much compassion, nurture, and love. I will no longer use my time to convince people of that. You either see me or you see what you want, and I have to be ok with it either way. It is a dangerous thing to want someone to be comfortable around you that has ill intentions. Lesson learned.