Grateful in disappointment

Ideally, we should know God has a plan for us and patiently wait for how it plays out. More than not, we begin planning the way we would like it to work. We start talking to God about our plan and ask him to bless it. Not saying what we are asking for is wrong. Just God's plan and our plans don't always add up to the same path.

I fell into this. Everything is going good. I felt like this was the time for the next thing to be happening. I got disappointed that it was not happening in my time. I had been in a place of being grateful but also trying to nudge God. I woke up and almost fell into sadness. I had to take a minute and shake it off. I am in a place that I have everything I need. I just celebrated my anniversary and am surrounded by love.

I had to correct myself in wanting to be upset about what I had not yet received. When I was in a place that a year ago, I couldn't imagine. God, I thank you for seeking me. I thank you for the growth in our relationship. I thank you how you show up for me. I thank you for who you have already been in my life. I thank you for loving me in a way I never knew possible. I thank you for breath and my health. I thank you for your guidance and direction to get to where I am. I thank you for showing me and teaching me how, when I never knew I could. I thank you for my Husband and children. I thank you for freeing me of loneliness. I thank you for who you have been, who you are, and thank you in advance for what you will do.