Interdependance

Me and my Husband have been learning that marriage is different than the last 4 years we had been together. Not only because we signed paper work but because we are the starting foundation of something new. We have to lean and learn each other like never before. What is important to him is important to me. What is important to me is important to him.

Us getting married allowed me to trust my husband like I have trusted no one else. I trust him to have my back for the rest of my life. I really have never had to depend on anyone. God always worked it out. As God continues to work it out he has shown grace in giving me a partner down here.

In this marriage we have had to learn we can not do it without each other. God told me to come off my job. It has been really hard for me because I am us to just taking care of things on my own. I thought it was mainly about me working on things I had been putting off that God wanted me to do. This last couple of months I have learned it is also trust my husband to take care of things.

I remember when he first gave me his card. It just felt good that he trusted me to have it. I didn't use it even when things felt like they were getting tight on my end. I knew I had it just in case I couldn't though. I used it for the first time at the grocery store today. I sent him a message saying I was using it and how much. I actually felt uncomfortable waiting on his response. All he said was ok.

I realized that all the things I was telling myself and feeling. Was about never having it. I never had anyone in my life that I could just depend on always. As we are both learning to depend on and be depended on. Today was a good day.