Man Listen

I have been in a world of feeling everything and nothing at all. I have been in a spiritual growth that I am able to see the balance in it all. The highs and lows. Light and darkness. Strength and weakness. Feminine and masculine. Love and heartache. Day and night. God and the devil. I have been fighting so hard to leave one for the other. The truth is you will never live in one place without the other. No matter how demonic the place you have gotten God is waiting for you call. The closer you get to God the more the devil will show up to stop you from seeing what God intends for you.

I faced something that has broken the woman in my family for generations. I was angry that I could be betrayed in the same way. How could I have done everything differently and still face the same fate? I cried, I yelled, I asked questions, I sought wisdom from spiritual advisors, and I just sat with God. Like what did I do to deserve this? I was confident nothing. It wasn't about me. Did it still hurt me? Absolutely. I had to be honest with myself that I saw it coming. I literally dreamed about it.

Would I let it affect me in the same way? No. It stole a piece of them. It stole their peace. Whether is shattered them emotionally or turned them cold and hardened their heart. I'm not shattered nor hardened. Did I wonder what I could have done differently? For sure. I even got wisdom from sitting with God that with him. Nothing or no one will get the best of me. I asked God to strengthen my discernment in wo is for me and against me. Now I know I can do right by them either way.

God knows the way to check and clean out your heart. From things you allow to make you feel justified in mistreating others. I had to get corrected in feeling justified in doing people wrong if they do wrong to me. God got it covered he seen it all. Let him watch you do the right thing. Even when your emotions are screaming for payback. When the people who know tell you rage is justified or even tell you God can fix it. I had to shut out everything and see what I thought. Could I forgive? Yes. Am I emotionally and mentally secure that I could be around them and not want harm to come to them? Yes. Has the trust been broken? Yes.

God got me. The only thing that has shattered was my facade. The only thing hardened was my faith in my creator. It's time to clean out. Pray. Dwell with God. Drink water. Eat fruits and vegetables. Get sunshine. Go breath some fresh air. Put your feet in the grass. Take deep breathes. No weapon formed against you shall prosper.