Opening up to God

Honestly this last year, but the last couple of months have been something else. It all has come from my experience with losing my first baby. I opened up to God in a way I wasn't able to before. Maybe I didn't know how but dealing with a pain like that I had to let God in every part of me to make it out.

I have never made a better decision. Now I am human so there will always be flaws but I know I am different. Not just in the way that kind of loss changes you. It opened up something I had locked away for safe keeping. Since it has been opened back up, I love differently, I am more grateful, and the peace hits different.

I opened back up that I am no longer emotionally afraid. It allowed me to let God in deeply. The way I have felt the spirit is in a way I can't explain but it is leading me now. I want to do the right thing even when the wrong thing will just hurt my waistline lol. I want to be my best version because what God has for me is so close. God deserves nothing less. I want to be everything he is calling me to be and I have to be ready when it the opportunity shows up.