Reflection

I have been in a really reflective place today. Thinking over the last year. Have I done everything I was supposed to do? I read today that God allows for good and bad days to make sure we don't take anything for granted.

I often think about the people that are no longer around. Was there more I could've done, or did it happen how it was meant to? I thought about that I really hadn't tried to make sure things got back on track. As quickly as I thought that. I thought neither had they. I am really not sure how much you are supposed to give. When it isn't met by anything.

It just went quiet from both sides. Things had just changed. I don't know how they feel but I feel nothing negative. When I think of it, I genuinely feel like they focused on what was important or priority. As they should. We were such a big part of each other's life how does it change to nothing.

Even for me what have I been doing with all the time we use to spend together. I guess family, working, and filling the time with what interest me. It has been peaceful. I feel like I gave a lot. Passed what I had sometimes. So, I guess I have been finding balance. I know it was for a purpose. I believe I definitely learned what I needed in this time. If they are meant to be mended, they will be.