Uniquely made

I have been feeling a type of tug a war of between who God has created me to be and what is acceptable in the eyes of the "church". We are the church and there are a lot of things the church will make you feel shame about that God doesn't make me feel shame about. It's more of me walking in my gifts and anointing, while trying not to get pulled in by the religious spirit. The church has lost its connection with winning souls because of the constant judgement of people that God is trying to reach.

For the last few months, I have been reading and hearing about Deborah. She was a judge and a leader in battle. She stayed between the ones leaving and coming into holy grounds. I have been feeling this so heavy. Clearly when you give your yes to God. There will be things that change in you naturally. God cleaned me up from drinking, smoking, and from people that would not encourage my spiritual growth. So quickly when we get saved to Christian's forget how hard it is without God.

We are still human. We can still have regular conversations. We can still laugh and spread joy. We are supposed to be leading with love. We are supposed to be a reflection of God that brings people to Christ. You should be able to spread the word of God without causing offense. I am a living witness that sometimes your presence will cause people to be offended when they aren't ready to change, but it should not be your words. Bringing the word of God without love is not what God intended.

God made us all uniquely different for a reason. There is something special he put just in you. Don't lose it in either direction. Trying to fit into the world or to the religious spirit. There are people that will turn to God for the special way he made you. Now you know your personal convictions, but I will continue to bring a smile to the world. I will dance. I will shine my light to all I come across. I will take in nature for the beauty God created it to be. I will hea from the earth through natural food and herbs. I will be who God created me to be.