Worship is for you

I have been getting awakened with worship songs on my spirit. I have been getting up and singing the song and talking to God and going back to sleep. Today I couldn't go back to sleep, so I got up and turned on a worship playlist. It just poured into me.

I was brought to tears about how good God is and has been to me. I thought about all the things God has brought me through. Thinking about the times I was mad with God because I felt so alone in the world and realizing he was right there the whole time. God has been so faithful to me. My only constant throughout my entire life. A lot of the time when we worship, we see it as gratitude to God. Lately worship has been a reminder to me of who God has been in my life.

As I sing the worship songs, I realize the patience, grace, and mercy God has shown me. I have never known that from a single person on this earth. All my relationships have been conditional. To the point I spoke that I also moved with conditions. I thought being upfront and honest about it made it different than the people had not told me, but I found out after they helped me or that I needed them it was.

God has been working on me to move without condition but also in wisdom. I move in the knowing that I can't let people change how I move with a pure heart. I just have to discern that when it is not well received and move accordingly. Just because you move with love does not mean God wants you to be played over. You have to set boundaries not with vengeance or out of anger. Just out of a knowing that God wants you to be treated as you deserve a well. I no longer love with condition, and it has expanded who I am. I am able to move genuinely and authentic to who God created me to be without fear. In loving with all I have God has given me wisdom in worship that just as I love him he loves me.