Getting to celebrate your loved ones

I don't most people give this much thought. Really taking the time to let the people around you know that you are proud of them and happy to celebrate them. whether it is just making it through a hard time, and accomplishment, or even a birthday. Showing up for them to say you are important to me.

I have probably missed one of each of my niece's birthdays. They are teenagers now. I always call my siblings to sing them happy birthday. This year feels important to make it to them to celebrate their day. I will be out of town for mine. I usually travel for my birthday I think the year before last was the first year I didn't. I like to be somewhere different to celebrate making into another year. New experiences marking everything that is to come.

I look forward to the day I can give my husband the birthday party he always wanted. God willing it will be for his 40th which is a lot closer than he would like to admit. Two years away to be exact lol. I don't think 40 is old at all I am only three years behind him and don't feel a day over 20. Definitely a lot wiser but am in the best shape I have ever been. That also comes with wisdom knowing what you should and shouldn't consume. I do get a kick out of how much it bothers him. He still hasn't received the gift of age. He is starting to be called Unc by younger men and it is driving him crazy.

Back to my point. celebrate the ones you love. Give them their flowers when they can smell them and admire how beautiful they are. When they can feel what they truly meant to you. Love of them, laugh with them, and shed a few tears telling them how special they are to you. Let them know you are proud of them. Let them experience all that you want to share with them. It is so important to give and receive that kind of celebration.

Uncomfortable being human

Why is that we begin to walk into the things we want. We unconsciously make a decision that being flawed and human is something we have to deny. I have really had to realize in this last week that I was being really hard on myself about being human. I know there are things that I have to change for things to be different for me and my children. I also have to realize that the things I have worked on I will not put us in danger or harm.

I don't want to get so structured that I become robotic. I highly doubt that can happen because I am such a girl of nature. I just don't to get to a place that I think I am living such a Christ like experience that I am no longer relatable to others everyday experience. I made a video last week that said don't get so holy you forget you are human. As Christians there seems like there is a point that you disconnect to empathy and compassion for the world. I don't feel like that is what God is calling us to do.

Last week I ate some chips. I was way harder on myself then it deserved. I am definitely called to clean eating, but I have to find a balance in being ok with being human. I know better than getting caught in the downward spiral of eating wrong because I need nourishment from food. I was literally a week ahead and was on this week schedule. Going to places and having work done to the point I was exhausted in how I pushed myself. I didn't even realize that I still had time. Literally another week. We are called to live soothing different, but don't get uncomfortable in being human.

The authentic you

If you are seeking God there will always be a call to come higher. In every season you will learn something of yourself that will have to change for the better. We will be learning and growing until we die. If you are doing life right anyway.

Everything you have been through has had an impact on you. It's not for you to dwell in the pain but for you to become who the world needs. Who you need to be. You have a unique outlook on the world. You have a story to tell that no one can tell for you. There will always be someone who tries but it belongs to you.

I say all that to say. Strengthening your relationship with God shouldn't cause you to become a person no one can connect to. Actually, the opposite getting closer to God should allow you to be more vulnerable and transparent than you have ever been. You went through things to have empathy and compassion. Also to have discernment and common sense. God wants you to be willing not naive. It won't look the same with all of us we all experienced different things even in the same household.

It is important you show up authentic to who you are daily. God can't use who you pretend to be. You can't bible thump people down and they feel you are ingenuine. Show up it is our duty to spread the love and knowledge of Jesus Christ but as a human. It's okay to talk to people regular. It's okay not to act like if they cuss it is the first curse word you have heard. It's ok to see them doing the wrong thing and talk to them about it without judgement. We have all been there before, and maybe it isn't the sin they are doing but we all sin daily. It's ok to admit that.